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Sermon for a Short Story

I also found a sermon in which we had to write after we read a short story by Gabriel Garcia Marquez called," The Handsomest Drowned Man in the World". The character in the story, Esteban, washed up dead upon the shore. The women and villagers were in awe of his physical stature. We had to write a sermon for our assignment. We had to write what we would say if we were one of the villagers honoring him. Here is mine:Ladies and gentleman, we have gathered here today to mourn the death of our beloved friend, Esteban. He came to us from an unforgiving, deadly sea. His body looked like it had been pecked to death by sea-grass wearing seagulls. His face was ugly and covered in crust, a nasty, disgusting crust. He looked as if his soul had been stomped upon by some unforgiving force of nature. But Esteban came to us for a reason. Our women took him in and cleaned him up and honored him with everything and every gift you could imagine. They gave him flowers. He was a tall, tall man.…

Falling (poem)

In 2004, I was a senior and I took Creative Writing class. We had to write a poem with examples of personification and hyperbole in it. A lot of my poems from then are very dark as I was in a very dark place in my life. But, I thought I would share my poem with personification and hyperbole.FallingMy heart aches with everlasting pain
Everytime you speak to me I melt
Your love is like a baby screaming out loud
My cries echo in the halls
I am holding on desperately to you
My heart is filled with tears
I try to cling on but I am falling away
The flowers in the garden turn into blood
Our eyes are flooding with fire
Your heart is a murderer
And I always stay and keep falling

Snowing

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It was snowing for almost 3 straight hrs this morning. Now it is sleeting, which is worse. Way worse. Very dangerous outside. So if you live in Baltimore area, be careful. It will be raining steady this evening and all tonight. But the snow was very pretty to watch. I took this photo with Instagram.

God Bless Journalists

As an aspiring journalist, I've watched a lot of journalists on tv and also read their articles. My favorite journalists are international journalists. And Richard Engel is one of them. He is an award winning journalist who has been missing in Syria since Thursday. I don't think a lot of people realize how dangerous it is to be a journalist in these times. With multiple wars all over the world, communist and totalitarian dictatorships murdering, raping and imprisoning journalists and dissidents, now more than ever, it is a life-risking career. They uncover the truth. And they are absolutely relentless in uncovering it. A real journalist will uncover truth no matter where it hides or who is hiding it. They are the very few people in this world who will travel to the most dangerous countries knowing they could be killed and speak out for those who are being oppressed and wronged.I learned a lot about Richard Engel in the link below. He is fluent in Arabic and Spanish. Two of the…

Human Rights Day

Today is Human Rights Day. We must not forget about the millions of our brothers and sisters all over the world who have no human rights at all. To name a few countries where human rights does not exist: Cuba, Venezuela, many countries in Middle East, many countries in Africa, China, Tibet. And the worst of the worst: North Korea. Please everyone, today, post something supporting our opressed brothers and sisters. We can use our freedom to give them a voice. They are being beaten, raped, murdered and imprisoned every second of every day. It doesn't stop. Dictatorships will stop at nothing to keep their power over people.  Please say a prayers for all who are oppressed. One day, everyone in the world will be free from dictatorships and evil.

Hip Hop Cubano

My friend and blogger Luis Felipe Rojas has written an excellent post about Cuban artist David D Omni. David transcends genres and generations. He is one of the artists in Cuba who is not afraid of the Castro regime. He speaks his mind. He believes everyone should have freedom.  He is an extraordinary artist. Please read the link below and share with your friends. VIVA CUBA LIBRE!!!!!!!!!!!!David Escalona, the Strength of Urban Hip-Hop | Crossing the Barbed Wire

Martin Luther King

I graduated high school in 2004 and in my senior year I took creative writing. By far my favorite class. Our teacher decided to play a joke on us and tell us that we didn't have off to observe Martin Luther King Day. So he made us write a paper explaining why we think its an important holiday and why we should have off of school. Of course, after we wrote our papers he told us we actually did have off that day. Lol. Recently, I found the papers I saved from that class, including that paper. I am publishing it here tonight:
I think Martin Luther King Day should be celebrated as a holiday and have off school and work because he changed America into what it is today. He had the courage to stand up against people who thought segregation was good and he stood up against the politicians who thought racism was right. He fought for schools to be un-segregated and for children of all races to be in the same classrooms together without worrying about each others race. He was critisized for b…

More oppression in Cuba

Yoani Sanchez, Angel Santiesteban and other dissidents yesterday were arrested and beaten by the Castro regime.  Some of them have been released, including Yoani. But others remain detained. This is horrible. The world needs to pay attention to the human rights abuses that the Castro dictatorship are commiting against their own people. Please read more here and spread the word on what is happening there: Uncommon Sense: Yoani Sanchez among 20 Cuban dissidents beaten, arrested by Castro dictatorship (UPDATED) And please pray for the Cuban people. They deserve freedom!!!!!!!!! No more oppression!

Humor for Tuesday

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I've been going through a lot lately, as I'm sure everyone is. So a dear friend of mine sent this to me. I hope everyone gets a laugh out of it. Or at least a smile. :-)

LIBERTAD!!!!!!!

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For those of you who don't know what "libertad" means. Translated from Spanish to English, it means "freedom". Freedom for Cuba. Freedom for a country that has been destroyed by the Castro brothers. They have been in power for way too long. Its time for Cuba and her beautiful people to have freedom. Freedom of speech. Freedom of expression. Freedom to say whatever they want, do what they want, without worrying about being killed or jailed for their political beliefs. The world needs to wake the hell up to what is happening in Cuba. We need to continue to tell everyone about Cuba until there is no one left to tell. VIVA CUBA LIBRE!!!!!!!! LIBERTAD!!!!!

My Love

My love is my country
My love is my people
My people who came from an island to find freedom
My love is America
My love is Ireland
My love is a country with no freedom
My love is her people
Her people who fight for freedom
Her people who die for freedom
My love is an island
My love is Cuba
My love is freedom
My love is hope
My love is prayer
My love is a free Cuba
Mi amor es mi America
Mi amor es mi Irlanda
Mi amor es mi Cuba
Mi amor es libertad.

An Injustice In Cuba

Today, in Cuba, a huge injustice happened to a man who did nothing wrong. Capitol Hill Cubans has the story:
Capitol Hill Cubans: What a Surprise: Carromero Found GuiltyI pray Carromero will be released before his sentence is up. He should have never been put on trial. He did nothing criminal. The Castro's are trying to cover their asses because they were the ones who had Paya killed. Carromero is innocent.

Scotland Is Closer To Freedom

FOX News - World - Latest Headlines - UK, Scotland to set out terms of independence vote - Page 1 of 1This story puts a smile to my face. The country where part of my ancestors came from, the country where some of them fought and died, may soon have the freedom they fought for. Centuries have passed, and yet the people of Scotland have never given up their fight for freedom. It makes me proud. Proud to be part Scottish. Proud of my heritage. My people. England made a huge mistake in Ireland and Scotland. They assumed the Irish and Scots would back down and allow a monarcy to reign without opposition. They were dead wrong. My people are some of the most toughest people in the world. And we also have some of the biggest hearts. Long live Scotland!!!!!!!!!!

Blogs for a Free Cuba

I haven't posted about Cuba in awhile and with all that's been going on I think I need to. A lot of my non-Cuban friends don't understand why I post about Cuba so much. It seems whenever I post about Cuba on facebook, someone always asks me why I post about Cuba when I'm not Cuban. To be honest, I get sick of explaining why. My posts should explain why. There is a totalitarian dictatorship that has destroyed that beautiful country and enslaved her people for decades. And the world sits by and caters to the Castros. Its not right. Its horrible that people ignore Cuba. Everyday, more and more now, dissidents are being beaten, threatened, jailed, women are being threatened with rape and sexual abuse, their children are being threatened, and even some dissidents, like Orlando Zapata and Oswaldo Paya and Laura Pollan, killed by the dictatorship. I try to do my little part in spreading the word on what is happening there but in reality, I can only do so much. There are a lot…

Self explanatory

This song speaks volumes for me. And I am sure it will speak volumes for a lot of other people too. Please listen to the lyrics. This band is one of my favorites. Every song they write seems to resonate with a lot of fans. This song is true. And its honest. And real. Worth listening to.Watch "Times - Tenth Avenue North" on YouTube

Salve Regina

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of Mercy;
Our life, our sweetness, and our hope.
To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve;
To thee do we send up our sighs,
Mourning and weeping in this valley of tears.
Turn, then, most gracious advocate,
Thine eyes of mercy towards us;
And after this our exile,
Show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary.

Hail Mary (Ave Maria)

Hail Mary, full of grace
The Lord is with thee
Blessed art thou among women
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus
Holy Mary, mother of God
Pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

The Lord's Prayer

Our Father
Who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
Our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
Amen.

The Lord's Prayer

Our Father
Who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
Our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
Amen.

A Poem to God

Before my battery dies (power should be on by tomorrow afternoon), I am going to share a poem that I found inside church today before Mass. Mabey it will help someone out there."Dear God, I do not want to know what things there are in store but I implore Your help to live and to accomplish more. Your hand alone can lead me through the darkness of the night, and bless me with encouragement to keep on doing right. I try to be prepared each day to take my life in stride. But I need grace to guide my steps and never leave Your side. Almighty God, in every thought I most sincerely pray for just enough assistance now that I may never stray. Be with me every morning when the sky is gray or blue and let me find the stars at night that light the way to You!" ~ James J. Metcalfe

FREE ALAN GROSS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone please read this link and pray for Alan Gross. Write your Senators and Congressmen. Get the word out. His life is in danger in Cuba. He was unjustly imprisoned and is in extreme danger of dying. Please do everything you can do to help him. Thank you. The wife of Alan Gross says he may not survive Cuban jail - Cuba - MiamiHerald.com

World Suicide Prevention Day

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. Today, a lot of people are struggling. And they are wondering if the struggle is worth it. If they can ever be happy. If their lives can ever be better. My answer, is YES!!!!!!!!! Today, tell someone you care about them. Listen to someone's problems. Offer up a solution. Or just offer up your support. If you see someone on a bridge just standing and looking down, ask them if they're ok. Same with any other place. Or if you hear someone talk about ending their life, help them. Be their friend. Listen to them. Suicide is permanent. Problems aren't. So, please help other. We need to build communtiy. We need to encourage. And if the topic of suicide is funny to you, if you want to makes jokes, then you show just how low a person can be. Remember, suicide will affect everyone at least once. You won't be joking when it affects you.Today, we must overcome the pain. The lonliness. The hurt. The shame. The stigma. Help others. God intended…

Lagrimas

"Si pudiera ser una parte de ti, seria tus lagrimas. Porque tus lagrimas son concebidas en tu corazon, nacen en tus ojos, viven en tus mejillas y mueren en tus labios." ~ Unknown The above translates as: "If I could be any part of you, I would be your tears. Because your tears are conceived in your heart, born in your eyes, live on your cheeks and die on your lips."It is one of my favorite quotes in Spanish. :-) Thought I would share it for everyone.

Cuba's Newest Political Prisoner

Cuba has a new political prisoner and the world needs to pay attention. Even though a lot of political prisoners have been released in the past two years, even more are being aressted and imprisoned again. We can't ignore this. We must spread the word and get their names and stories out there. Please read about the imprisonment of Roelbis Coba Sendo and share with all of your friends. This is the only way Cuba will be free. We have to support the dissidents and political prisoners by being their voices when they are silenced.     
Uncommon Sense: Roelbis Coba Sendo, Cuban Political Prisoner of the Week, 9/2/12

God and I

These past few weeks have been hard, emotionally and mentally. I don't know where to begin. I know a lot of people out there feel the way I do. Alone, empty, tired. Tired of everything. Tired of trying. I have struggled with faith for awhile now. Struggling with doubt. I look at people who say they feel God all around them, and I wonder to myself, why can't I feel that? I pray more now than I used to. While I'm walking, while I'm trying to sleep, while I'm working. No one hears of course, except for God and I. I think its been around 3 years now that I've been studying Catholicism and jumping into the faith which I was baptized in. I don't know everything but I'm learning more each day. Its hard for me to trust. Especially talking about faith and my troubles with it. But I share it because I think there are many others who have trouble. Who have grown up without faith. Without someone to believe in. Sometimes, I am so ashamed of where I'm at in my l…

God bless Catholic Priests

Watch "Tomorrow's priests" on YouTube Everyone please watch this video and share to support these men and their vocation to the priesthood.

Struggling with Faith

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The picture here is of the Baltimore Basilica. I passed it on the way to the hospital the other day. The writing near the gates says it was America's first Cathedral. Catholic charities is also nearby it as well. It is so beautiful.I have been struggling with my faith recently and my depression is horrible. And of course, anxiety is along with it so it makes for a horrible combination. I am trying to take everything one minute at a time but I find that even that is hard. I find myself praying internally to God asking Him why He never speaks back to me. A lot of the time I feel He has abandoned me. I sin. A lot. I always think I'm not good enough. I've let a lot of people down recently. I have so much fear inside of me. Fear of everything. So much worry. I just want it all to go away. I just want everything to be fine. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to worry myself sick (literally). I don't want to be the center of jokes because I'm being who I am…

A little nose piercing!

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I got my nose pierced the other day. Still trying to get used to it. I have really sensitive skin so it still hurts a lot. Have to keep an eye on it and make sure it doesn't get infected. I'm also putting the stuff on it that they give everyone after you get a piercing. In a couple months, I'm thinking of getting my navel pierced. Not sure though. But I'm content with my 3 piercings for now. Lol.

My favorite quote in Spanish

"Uno aprende a amar, no cuando encuentre a la persona perfecta, sino cuando aprenda a creer en la perfeccion de una persona imperfecta."

Random Thoughts

1. Todd Akin is an asshole.2. Vladimir Putin is an asshole.3. The Republican Party is becoming just as bad as the Democrats, and I'm on the verge of changing my affiliation to Independent. I've been a Democrat. Got fed up with them. And now I'm getting fed up with Republicans who are stuck in biblical times and can't seem to come to the 21st Century.4. If you keep asking about why I do things, such as get my nose pierced or dye my hair or eat a lot, then my only answer for you will be: its none of your damn business. I might eat a lot, but I keep my figure. So I don't give a shit what anyone thinks.5. To all of my friends in Florida who could be impacted by Issac: you are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay safe down there!6. Psoriasis is awful when it spreads all over your body. But its still not as bad as ringworm. Ringworm is hell!!!! And I hope I never get it again. Ill tolerate psoriasis.7. The hot weather is back today. Along with humidity. 8. There needs to be …

My Beautiful Ireland. :-)

A Little Dancing Music For Tuesday.

Quote of the Night

"Oh, my friend, it's not what they take away from you that counts. It's what you do with what you have left." ~ Hubert Humphrey

Suicide and Society

This morning I woke up to the news that director Tony Scott jumped off a bridge to his death. He was most notable for his movie Top Gun and was the brother of Ridley Scott. Whenever someone takes their life, its a tragedy. But when an older person does, it sends a message to everyone that suicide is not a generational problem. Suicide is an epidemic in this country. Its estimated that somwhere around the world, I read that a suicide happens every minute or so. And I believe it. We have come to a point where instead of being encouraged to get help, we hear people say, "Get over it" or "Just be happy".  But for someone with mental illness or someone who has suffered trauma and has depression as a result, you can't just get over it. You can't just be happy. It takes much more than that. It takes community, friendship, encouragement, therapy, and more often than not, medication. I know this all too well. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety at 1…

FREE PUSSY RIOT!!!!!!!!!!

The ladies of Pussy Riot were sentenced to two years in jail this week. This is horrible. Putin and his oppressive government are at fault for this. Please everyone speak up for these ladies who are now behind bars for exercising their freedom of speech. We have to use our freedom to help them gain theirs, just like we help other dissidents around the world by speaking up for them. These strong women deserve freedom!! And I have a couple of words for Putin and his thugs: FUCK YOU PUTIN!!!!!!!! FREE PUSSY RIOT NOW!!!!!!

Sometimes It's Best To Walk

This morning getting off of my first bus downtown, the second one came fast. Myself and another woman were walking towards it and the driver stopped. Then all of a sudden right when we got up to the bus, he drives right off, leaving us. Its not the first time this has happened to people. It happens all the time. I'm not going to worry about why he left without picking us up. I sat back down waiting for the next bus which comes on 20 min intervals. But then I realized my place is about a mile and a half away, at most. And I've never walked the distance yet. And its a beautiful day so why not? Even with my feet hurting I walked the whole way. It took me about 25 mins. I've realized that walking is not only good for us physically, but it is also good for us spiritually and mentally. You get to enjoy nature. You get to have a clear mind. Seeing things you might not have seen before. I'm horribly tired though. I put on a pedometer one night at work and I clocked in 13 miles…

A Little Spice for Today

Watch "Spice Girls - Spice Up Your Life" on YouTube In honor of The Spice Girls reuniting for the closing games of the Olympics, here is my favorite song by them. I was a huge fan as a kid. Even went so far as to dress up like one of them for Halloween. Lol.

Galicia, Spain

An Early Birthday Present

I live in a house with multiple tenants, including children. One of the women has twin girls, 8 yrs old. They heard it was my birthday tomorrow and when I went up to the steps of the basement, I found a hand-made card wishing me a Happy Birthday. They spelled my name wrong. Lol. Spelling it as "Clena". But I didn't mind. I loved it. Children are so sweet. They are the only ones in this world that have so much love in their hearts that we can't even begin to understand. In my opinion, having someone give me a little hand made card is so much better than something materialistic. Because it came from the heart. And that's what matters most. I'm happy. I'm happy because I have people around me that love me, even if at times I can't see it. My best friend and I have known each other since we were 11. We never thought we would survive until 18....and now we both are turning 26 this month. Time flies by so fast. But I'm thankful I made it this long.UPDAT…

San Judas Tadeo

San Judas Tadeo intercesor en todo problema dificil, consigueme un trabajo en que me realice como humano y que a mi familia no falte lo suficiente en ningun aspecto de la vida. Que lo conserve a pesar de las circunstancias y personas adversas. Que en él progrese, mejorando siempre mi calidad y gozando de salud y fuerzas. Y que día a día trate de ser util a cuantos me rodean. Asocia tu intercesión a la sagrada familia, de la cual eres pariente y prometo difundir tu devoción como expresión de mi gratitud a tus favores. Amén.

Random Thoughts for Tuesday

1. Everyone needs to have some fun. No matter what your job is or where you are. Just have some fun!!!!!!!! Everyone takes everything way too seriously and we are forgetting the meaning of fun.2. Music is a wonderful thing.3. Russia needs to free Pussy Riot immediately. The Russian government is still jailing and murdering its citizens for speaking their minds and daring to go against Putin.4. To the person who keeps following me, then un-following me on Twitter, (at least 3 times now), just stop. Its extremely annoying and just plain creepy. Its not that hard to decide whether to follow someone or not. I'm half-tempted just to block your ass so you won't have to go through the trouble of un-following me again. If my tweets aren't interesting, then don't follow. Its simple.5. Men, don't brag to every woman about how "good" you are in bed.......cause most of the time, the ones that brag to everyone, don't have shit. A vibrator would probably give more …

Prayer of the Day

Sancte Michal Archangele, defende nos in proelio; contra nequitiam et insidias diaboli esto praesidium. Imperet illi Deus, supplices deprecamur : tuque, Princeps militiae caelestis, satanam aliosque spiritus malignos, qui ad perditionem animarum pervagantur in mundo, divina virtute in infernum detrude. Amen. Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle; be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; and do thou. O prince of the heavenly host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who roam about the world, seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.

Music Time!

Punk Band on Trial in Russia

Watch "Russian punk rock band on trial" on YouTube Everyone please watch this video and spread the word. We need these women to be freed immediately. The Pussy Riot members have been jailed for political reasons. And I loved what they said. "Virgen Mary, drive Putin away." These women have balls. Big balls to go up against a Communist regime and its President. We must stand behind them and support them to be freed.And let me say one thing. I have noticed a lot of so-called human rights activists that are completely silent on this. And most of them being men. When Cuban punk band Porno Para Ricardo were arrested in Cuba, activists from all over the world condemned the Castro regime. Even though many did not agree with PPR's name nor their lyrics, they still campaigned for their release. So my question is, why be silent when females are jailed? Putin is no better than Castro. Both are Communist countries that oppress their people. I call on all human rights activ…

Quote of the Day

"The Church is not a museum of saints, but rather a hospital for sinners." ~ Father Bob SewvelloCan everyone please keep Fr. Sewvello in your prayers? He is currently battling cancer. Thank you. God bless.

St. Jude

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The picture here is of the St. Jude Shrine here in Baltimore. It is on the corner of Paca and Saratoga Street. St. Jude is the Patron Saint of lost causes, of those in need, desperate or lost souls, all of the above, and much more. When you are in trying times, you can always turn to St. Jude and pray. I think now more than ever we need St. Jude. I pass this shrine on the way home every day. If anyone is ever in Baltimore, please visit the shrine. Its on a major bus route and within walking distance from the Harbor and right near Lexington Market. It is a place of hope for those of us who are hurting. If you are hurting and lost, please know you're not alone. I will pray to St. Jude for all of us who need help. I wish everyone a blessed day.  Take care. God bless.

Scripture of the Day

Corinthians I 12:12-13 ~ The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body--whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free--and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.    I hope everyone has a safe and blessed Sunday. God bless you all. Take care.

Americans

We are Americans,
You and I.
The land we are sharing
With its clear and friendly sky
Is a gift from God
For you and I.
Though times have been changing,
Nothing's the same.
The freedom is here
And shall always remain.
The clouds appear
But move on in the sky.
We are Americans,
You and I.~ Nonna L. Bannister, October 1989Nonna L. Bannister was an author (posthumously) of a book entitled, The Secret Holocaust Diaries. She was the sole survivor of her entire family. Part of her family were killed in Russia during the Stalinist regime, and part were killed by Hitler and his Gestapo. Her mother died in a concentration camp days before it was liberated. Nonna was hidden in a hospital by Catholic nuns to save her from the same fate as her mother. She emigrated to the U.S. and married and had children. She was married for 53 yrs and 53 days when she died in 2004. Her book is compiled by notes, diaries and documents and photos she saved and hid. She wrote her diaries in over 6 languages a…

Paya Vive!!!!!!!!

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Oswaldo Paya will live on in all of us who fight for a Free Cuba!!!!!!!!!!

R.I.P. Oswaldo Paya.

I was shocked and saddened to learn the murder of Cuban dissident leader Oswaldo Paya. I keep on thinking its a dream and ill wake up. he was a founder and leader of the Cristian Liberation Movement. He fighted for a free Cuba. And now, the Cuban regime has murdered him. How many more have to die before the world pays attention? How many more? I feel aweful for his family and friends. And brothers in the fight for Cuban freedom. I can't imagine the pain they feel. I am sick of people not caring about Cuba. They say it doesn't affect them. Well I say, yes it does. Cuba is 90 miles from us, and a sponser of terrorism. So, yes, what happens in Cuba, should matter to us a lot. The Cuban regime are killing dissidents. They are killing those who are the only hope for a free Cuba. They are killing those who have the most powerful voices to the world. It pisses me off. And it should piss everyone off. Its not right. Its not right that the Cuban people suffer for so long and the world …

Thought for the night

I don't really have a thought.........................its way too damn hot out to think. It was 107 today...heat index 113.......my mind and body needs time to rest, then think. So, after work, and sleep, I should be able to think properly with some witty thought. Lol. I wish you all a safe and blessed night. Take care and God bless.

Thought for the Night

It doesn't matter what your past is, what you've done....everyone deserves a second chance. Everyone deserves a better future. And everyone is fighting a battle. Remember that. Have a blessed night everyone. Take care and God bless.

One of my favorite songs.

Watch "LINKIN PARK - LIES GREED MISERY (Official Lyric Video)" on YouTubeOne of my new favorite songs. I've been a fan of these guys since 2000. Their music has always been an outlet for me. Awesome new music from them.

The Road Less Traveled........Or So We Think

Something caught my attention about a week ago when I was getting my antibiotics at the pharmacy. A big sign said," Generic for Lexapro now available". It made me think a lot. I have been on Lexapro and found it amazing for anxiety. But for depression, not so much. I guess it works for some and not for others. I know the generic will be able to help a lot of people who could not afford it before. But it also made me think of how many people in this country, or even the world, suffer in silence every single day. They look happy to some, but inside they want to die. It is one of the many epidemics we are faced with now. The epidemic of mental illness. Some you can look at and just by their behavior and actions you can tell they are mentally ill and need help. But for a majority of others, no one would know unless they say something. The same with addiction. It is also an epidemic now. And for the most part, we choose to ignore those who are suffering. Mabey because we are scar…

Learning How To Forgive

For all of my short adult life so far (I'll be 26 in Aug.), the one thing that I have wanted to achieve more than anything is a constant state of peace within myself. Being in peace no matter what happens. But I have realized I can't have peace until I forgive. And I have a lot of people I need to forgive, for various things. But I keep hitting a block. A brick wall that more than ever seems like it is impossible to break down. Instead, it feels like the wall is getting stronger and bigger. And I don't know how to break it down. I know I can't do it alone. Doing it alone never works. But at the same time I am afraid. Because to forgive someone else, I first have to forgive myself. Forgive myself for all the hate I have held inside toward this person. And in return I have also hated myself. The one person I can't seem to forgive is the one person whom I hope I never see again. The one person who screwed up how my mind views men and intimacy. I spent my childhood sca…

Random Thoughts

1. The U.N. Human Rights Council should be disbanded immediately. They are an insult to everyone who lives under tyranny and oppression. There is no reason why Cuba and other oppressers and dictatorships should be
on that council.2. I cannot stand people who take their bullshit and anger out on others. It gets very exhausting being a punching bag. Especially when its coming from a family member.3. Never trust men. Ever. All the good ones are either gay, married or dead.4. Wouldn't it be funny if the world was a huge snowglobe and some kid was playing with it and fucking everything up? (I know, I'm a nerd).5. I was serenaded last week by a customer with a guitar. He also prayed with me for my health. He is an awesome man.6. Sometimes I think that love will never find me. Pure love, that is. But being alone my whole life is a terrifying thought. And I wonder a lot why am I never good enough for men.7. Strep throat sucks. Big time. And a hospital that repeatedly misdiagnoses you…

Sandusky and Justice

I am a little late to the news that former Penn State coach Jerry Sandusky was convicted of 45 of the 48 counts of sexual abuse. I am glad the jury found him guilty. Now mabey the boys he molested can now have some sort of peace within themselves. Or at least move toward peace. I try to stay away from the news when it comes to sex abuse stories. Having been through it myself, seeing it on the news brings up memories that I don't want to deal with or think about. But at least in this case, justice has been served. He won't be able to hurt anyone else ever again. I hope he begs forgiveness from God because he is going to need it. I think the media coverage on this case has dimished the stigma ( only to a certain degree) of survivors of sex abuse. And I try not to follow the path of the media and call them "victims"...... because when you really think about it, we aren't victims. We are survivors. We do our best to overcome what has been done to us. And we also try …

Heat Wave

So, its supossed to be 99 today with a heat index of 105............this is about the time where I start thinking of my little island on a beach with white sand and palm trees and sky blue water. And VERY little humidity. I think if the humidity here in Baltimore wasn't so bad then I could tolerate the heat. But with respiratory issues, allergies, and a deviated septum, I feel like I am suffocating with this heat wave. Riding the bus is the only relief I get. Lol. All of them are air conditioned. I pray that no one dies from this heat. There are many homeless in Baltimore who do not have a place to go. Temporary shelters with air conditioning are open. Let's hope this summer is not as bad as we think it will be. As a native Floridian, I can honestly say I do miss hurricanes. Lol. Crazy, I know. Maybe we will have one up here this year? :-) lol. Wishful thinking on my part. I hope everyone stays safe out there. Take care and God bless.

Trying to make it through

This year has not gone the way I hoped it would be. In March, with my mothers surgery and heart issues, and now with me having nearly 3 infections at once, and also now to learn that my mother has a tumor that they found. Good news is that it wasn't there when she had the surgery, which means it hasent been there for long. Which makes it a lot easier to treat her if it is cancer because it hasent spread anywhere. They will biopsy it and go from there. I honestly don't know what to do. Don't know who or where to turn to for help. Emotionally, I am in a horrible state, as I always am when I am this sick. But to learn my mom might have cancer is too much for me to handle. Going to church today is out of the question as I am still highly contagious so hopefully by Thursday afternoon or Friday I will go and talk to someone. Tonsilitis, ear infection and possible strep throat are nothing to play with and the last thing I want is for anyone else to have this. I hope and pray this…

Some thoughts on homophobia and using religion to promote hate.

I have been debating about writing this for quite sometime now. But after reading something about Nick Cannon refusing to hug a gay contestant, then I thought that I have to state my opinion on the whole gay "issue". First and foremost, this post is not about gay marriage. Whether you are for it or not, it shouldn't matter with this post. This post is about hate. Hate towards gays that is mostly from the "Christian community". So-called Christians who believe all gays are going to hell and that they are an abomination to God. Well, let me put something in perspective for everyone. No sin is greater than the other. All sins are equally wrong in the eyes of God. With that being said, how many of you that hate gays, have had sex BEFORE marriage?????? If you have, then you have commited a sin just as equal as gay sex. Congratulations. Because as far as your logic goes, you are also an abomination. From what I hear a lot, people like to think that the Catholic Churc…

Scripture of the Day

Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

Quote of the Day

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." ~ Plato

The Crucible vs. McCarthyism: A Comparison/Contrast Essay.

The following essay is from my Junior year of high school that I wrote in American Literature/English class in 2002. I found it today while packing more stuff.In history there have been many major events that have shaped the times we live in. Two of the major events of our time are the "witchunts" of the Salem Witch Trials and McCarthyism. In these two events there are many similarities like the anger and fear that went on, but however, there is a lot of contrast between the two, such as the consequences. Because of these rich and controversial topics, Arthur Miller wrote his play, The Crucible, which demonstrates all of these issues. He wrote it also so that we would learn and grow from the past, instead of ignoringly repeating it.The first way both of these events have similarities is by anger. There was a lot of anger among the people of this time. During the Salem Witch Trials, Abby hates Elizabeth Proctor and the wife of the man that she loves, which then results in Abb…

The River Of Dreams

Watch "Billy Joel - The River Of Dreams" on YouTube.  Billy Joel is one of my favorite artists. And his song, The River of Dreams, is one of my all-time favorite songs. This song makes me realize that we all can live our dreams. We all dream. Probably more than we think. Dreaming doesn't end when we wake up, we dream throught the day. We dream of what has been, what is going on in the present, and also of what will come. We can't control our dreams. But we can control what we make of them. And we can control if and how we achieve them. My dream is to become a journalist and travel the world telling the stories of people that have no voice. To some, it is nothing more than a dream. To me, its not just a dream. It is a dream that will become a reality one day. It might take me a long while to achieve it, but I will. And anyone else can achieve their dreams as well. We all float down the river of dreams, the question is this: will you continue floating down and achieve …

Scripture of the Day

Titus 3:4-7 But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life.

Inspiring Song of the Day

Watch "Brandon Heath - The Light in Me - Lyrics" on YouTube.  This song is my favorite song by Brandon Heath. Very inspirational.

Scripture of the Day

Titus 1:7-9 Since an overseer is entrusted with God's work, he must be blameless -- not overbearing, not quick-tempered, not given to drunkenness, not violent, not pursuing dishonest gain. Rather he must be hospitable, one who loves what is good, who is self-controlled, upright, holy and disciplined. He must hold firmly to the trustworthy message as it has been taught, so that he can encourage others by sound doctrine and refute those who oppose it.

Scripture of the Day

John 6:35 Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty."

Scripture of the Day

Titus 3:4-7 But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life.

Scripture of the Day

Peter I 4:12-13 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

Thoughts on being non-Cuban and spreading the word on the struggle for freedom in Cuba

I originally wasn't going to post anything. But what someone said to me a couple nights ago has weighed heavily on my mind. A group of people and I were talking about the Marlins manager and the uproar over him making comments praising dictator Fidel Castro. Then one of them said to me: "You care more about Cuba than your own heritage" and also "You act like a Cuban". This took me back. And it has made me question a lot of things within myself. First and foremost, I'm not Cuban. And I don't pretend to be. as far as "acting like a Cuban", what does a Cuban act like? Really. I know many Cubans. And all of them are different. They are their own personalities just like everyone else. I did not ask that question to the person but the only explanation I can come up with as to why they said that, is because I am a very emotional and passionate person (that's probably an understatement there) and I guess that is one of the stereotypes that society…

Good Friday and Some Thoughts.

Today is Good Friday. This is the day when Jesus was crucified on the Cross. This year I know more than I did last year about this day. I'm not sure if other people new to faith have experienced this, but it has taken me a long time to really understand that Jesus died for our sins. For our salvation. And that He loves every single one of us. Even through our sins. We are not worthy of His love, for we all sin. But He still chooses to love us. Once we can wrap our heads around that, I think lives would be more richer and happier. People would have more peace within themselves. I don't understand all of it still, but I do know that for the first time in my life, I feel that Jesus loves me. I never thought I would feel that. And He loves all of you too. Even when we feel we are alone, He is here. Even through our own trials, He is here. When we carry our own crosses, He is here with us. Suffering with us. He knows all too well about suffering and pain and humiliation. Even in ou…

Thoughts About Trayvon Martin Case

I have been listening to a lot of the media and news reports for the last week about the murder of Trayvon Martin. My opinion will not be popular, but here goes. This case is not racial. Everyone please stop making this into a race war. Every single night, kids of ALL backgrounds and races are gunned down in all types of situations. If Zimmerman would have yelled out racial slurs against the kid, then it would be racially motivated. But he did not. None of the witnesses say he did. Therefore, it is not a hate crime nor is it racially motivated. We need to stop blaming things on the color of peoples skin. I believe Zimmerman was looking for someone to shoot. The whole point of neighborhood watch is to do just that: watch. If you think something is wrong, then you call the police and let them handle it. When Zimmerman was told not to follow Martin, he ignored that order and ran after him. At that moment, it became intent that he was looking for a fight. And when he shot Martin, it becam…

Scared

Since Sunday, my home has been at the hospital with my mom. She has two very serious health problems. One involves the region of her abdomen and the other is her heart. She needs surgery. Everything the doctors are doing is not working now. They tried to avoid surgery, but it is inevitable now. And they have to make sure her heart will be able to handle it. Her Echo is scheduled for sometime soon. I am helpless. Oddly enough, she is more positive than I. She has not been able to eat nor drink anything at all since Sunday. She is on an IV for fluids. After the surgery, she will be on a liqiud only diet until she can work up to solid foods again so her stomach and digestive system can handle it. I hate seeing her like this. Having a tube down her nose to her stomach sucking out all the waste that is stuck and now there is blood in it. All I can do is pray. I am mad at God right now. I know that is bad to say but I am. My mother and I have our issues but I love her. And she knows I love …

Andrew Breitbart R.I.P.

The world of politics and journalism lost a dear soul the other day. Andrew Breitbart was a conservative journalist and writer who stood up against the extreme Left and exposed their propaganda and hatred for everyone. He exposed the truth when other media outlets wouldn't even dare to. And sadly, the Leftists are now exposing their true selves in the wake of his death. They are smearing his name, talking trash and literally rejoicing. It is disgusting. They have no shame nor guilt. But if they think that people are going to stop exposing them for who they really are, they are very wrong. Breitbart inspired thousands, if not millions, to speak up and stand up for the truth and to expose the Left. From what I have read about him, he was once on the side of the Left, like myself, and knows all too well the lies that they feed to people. As someone who wants to be a journalist, he is an inspiration. He is the epitomy of an excellent and true, passionate journalist. He had no fear. An…

Andrew Breitbart R.I.P.

The world of politics and journalism lost a dear soul the other day. Andrew Breitbart was a conservative journalist and writer who stood up against the extreme Left and exposed their propaganda and hatred for everyone. He exposed the truth when other media outlets wouldn't even dare to. And sadly, the Leftists are now exposing their true selves in the wake of his death. They are smearing his name, talking trash and literally rejoicing. It is disgusting. They have no shame nor guilt. But if they think that people are going to stop exposing them for who they really are, they are very wrong. Breitbart inspired thousands, if not millions, to speak up and stand up for the truth and to expose the Left. From what I have read about him, he was once on the side of the Left, like myself, and knows all too well the lies that they feed to people. As someone who wants to be a journalist, he is an inspiration. He is the epitomy of an excellent and true, passionate journalist. He had no fear. An…

The trouble with worrying.

Ok, I have a huge problem with worrying about things. Anyone who knows me, knows this. Lately though, it has been worse than usual. I don't know why or where it is coming from. But I can't stand it. Because with me, worry turns into anxiety and anxiety turns into high blood pressure. I have been warned by doctors that my bp is high. That is a problem considering I am 25. I try lighting candles, I try relaxing, I try meditating and yet my mind still races. Mabey someone out here in the blogosphere has dealt with this and has a solution. Because I know if I focus on certain things and worry too much, it could come true. And I do not want that at all. Because the things I worry about, are serious. Irrational to others mabey, but serious to me. I have isolated myself lately which is not good. I honestly don't know what to do about this now. It seems to get worse. So if anyone has any advice, it is welcome. Peace be with you all and have a blessed and safe day.

Personal Thoughts on Lent, Faith and of course, I do some Rambling.

Today is Ash Wednesday. The start of Lent. I want to wish all of my brothers and sisters in the faith a wonderful and blessed Easter season. I have not started out good so far. Even though I have given up soda for Lent, that is the easy part. Today, we are supossed to abstain from eating meat. I was doing good.but I have had so much on my mind and so distracted by things that I fixed cheese manacotti for breakfast. Completely forgot that it had meat in the sauce. I didn't even notice it until I was almost done my plate. I doubt Jesus is pissed at me though. Since it was an honest mistake. This is my second year observing Lent so I am trying to get used to everything. Faith confuses me very easily. And lately, I need faith more than ever. I don't know why but certain people seem to think it is ok to insult my intellect. I will admit, I have my dumb moments. We all do.But for the most part, I consider myself at least a little smart. Even if they are being sarcastic, I still take…

update to the previous post

I am not sure if my last post linked to the sites correctly so I will try again. http://freecubafoundation.blogspot.comhttp://cubanexilequarter.blogspot.com . you can find more info about the fast and vigils on these links in this post. if you are not in miami you can organize one where you live. it is important that we all honor those who have died while fighting for a free cuba. peace be with you all.

Fasting and Prayer for Orlando Zapata, Wilman Villar Mendoza, and Brothers to the Rescue

On the 23rd of this month, Feburary, it will be 2 years since the death of Cuban Prisoner of Conscience Orlando Zapata, who died on a hunger strike while in prison. He died fighting for a free Cuba. Last month, sadly another Cuban prisoner of conscience, Wilman Villar, died on hunger strike. The Free Cuba Foundation is calling on all people of good will to join in fasting and prayer to honor Zapata, Villar and also the four brave men of Brothers to the Rescue who were shot down by the Castro regime in International waters. All of them died struggling and fighting for a free Cuba. Please consider joining in a 24 hour fast to honor all of these brave men. You can also organize and participate in vigils and moments of silence as well. It is the least we can do to honor all who have died for a free Cuba. For more detailed information you can visit http://freecubafoundation.blogspot.com/ to learn more about Zapata and Villar and Brothers to the Rescue and also fasting and prayer on the 23r…

Human rights

Human rights is a universal right. It should be a right for everyone. But sadly, it is not. There are many regimes around the world who abuse their people and take away or just flat out deny them of their basic human rights. Cuba, Iran, North Korea, China and Burma to name just a few. Everyones eyes are on the Middle East but the media continues to ignore human rights abuses in Cuba. Female dissidents being sexually harrassed and abused by government thugs. Dissidents being arrested on their way to Sunday Mass. They are beaten, threatened and abused by the regime on a daily basis and the world ignores it. In Tibet, monks are self-immolating (setting themselves on fire) to try to make the world pay attention to the illegal occupation in their country by the Chinese communist government. The Chinese government, just like the Cuban regime, harrasses and threatens and beats dissidents in Tibet on a daily basis. And again, the media ignores it. If you ask yourself, 'Why should I care?&…

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"Let us be grateful to

"Let us be grateful to the people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom." - Marcel Proust

Friends

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Over the past few days i have had some clarity. My health issue has improved and i have been blessed with amazing, caring and loving friends. And i have come to realize that i have been believing internal lies. By that i mean that i have been putting myself down too much and letting every little thing stress me out. I cant do that anymore. It is very true when they say you are your own worst enemy. God will provide. He will provide what i need. It might not be what i want or think i need, but it will be what i need at the moment. I am thankful to him and to the people in my life who make their presence known when i feel absolutely alone and beaten down. I guess sometimes, or alot of the time, all we really need to feel better are some good friends and conversations to get us through. Peace be with you all today. This picture message or video message was sent using Multimedia Messaging Service. To play video messages sent to email, Apple� QuickTime� 6.5 or higher is required. Visit www…

"It is in the shelter

"It is in the shelter of each other that the people live." - Irish Proverb

After this morning and my

After this morning and my trip to the hospital, I am dead tired. People, don't play with your health. Your health is important.

Blogger, please fix whatever is

Blogger, please fix whatever is going wrong between my posts being sent from phone to my blog, it is annoying. Stop mixing words.

Faith.

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Alophoto taken from internet. t of things have been on m mind lately. Faith being one of them. Catholic faith. I was baptized catholic at 4 after my father died. i guess back then they had a thing called 'limbo' and that is why i was baptized. I wasn't raised in the church at all. I was raised with no religion. I have found my way back to the same church i was baptized into. but it is also humiliating to have to take classes to be confirmed. It is humiliating to have to learn the bible at 25 years old. There are children who know way more than i do. I struggle with doubt alot. Alot of the time i don't feel god around me. I feel like a failure. Sometimes i feel that god hates me. I feel empty. And it hurts. I guess this is all normal feelings to have in the journey of faith but i don't want these feelings anymore. I want to feel god near me. With me. This keeps me up most days. Like
today.i want peace inside of me. No more sadness anssray that god hears all of our p…

Invasion

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I have an invasion of horse flies in my apartment. Well, it's more like an infestation. Seriously. I had a rat that died inside of my walls and i am guessing these little bastards have nested in the walls while feasting on the rat. It got to the point where last week i had about 80 of them in my kitchen flying over my light. The only way i can control them is by spraying them. And that is only the ones that i can see. I am guessing the ones in the wall are going to keep having babies. The worst part is i am going to have company tomorrow morning and now have to make it look presentable and apologize over and over for the state of my apartment. Even though i live with my mother, she doesn't help at all and honestly doesn't care. I would rather deal with the rats than these flies. They are horrible. I feel like a failure. All i can do is pray that they will go away. And fast.This message has been sent using the picture and Video service from Verizon Wireless!To learn how you…

"If we have no peace,

"If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other." - Mother Teresa

Just a quick note for

Just a quick note for the few readers I have, mobile blogger is messing up my posts and I will fix my posts when i get to a pc.

Willman Mendoza r. I. P.

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Last night wilman villar mendoza died from more than 50 days of being on a hunger strike. He died fighting for the freedom of his country. He died a hero. He left behind 2 daughters, 5 and 6, and a wife. The castro regime is fully responsible for his death. I have seen other bloggers say that we all could have done more. That we failed wilman. And i agree. I am so pissed that he died. How many more cubans have to die before the international media pays attention? How many more? They turned a blind eye to him and the dissidents. Enough is enough. I hope and pray that no one else dies. I hope and pray that this will be the last year of the castro regime in power. The people of cuba need freedom. Now. And they need our support to accomplish that. Please spread the word about mendoza. Let his memory live on. Fight for freedom in his memory. pray, tell your friends and family, write letters
to your elected officials. Do something to help the dissidents in cuba. pray for his family. Please.