Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Sermon for a Short Story

I also found a sermon in which we had to write after we read a short story by Gabriel Garcia Marquez called," The Handsomest Drowned Man in the World". The character in the story, Esteban, washed up dead upon the shore. The women and villagers were in awe of his physical stature. We had to write a sermon for our assignment. We had to write what we would say if we were one of the villagers honoring him. Here is mine:

Ladies and gentleman, we have gathered here today to mourn the death of our beloved friend, Esteban. He came to us from an unforgiving, deadly sea. His body looked like it had been pecked to death by sea-grass wearing seagulls. His face was ugly and covered in crust, a nasty, disgusting crust. He looked as if his soul had been stomped upon by some unforgiving force of nature. But Esteban came to us for a reason. Our women took him in and cleaned him up and honored him with everything and every gift you could imagine. They gave him flowers. He was a tall, tall man. He was as tall and big as the mountains. His beauty went far beyond nature's. We are here to honor him today and to give him thanks for changing our lives. We need to live fuller and more happier lives. Esteban has brought us so much joy and has taught us to treasure our lives. He will be apart of our souls for as long as we live, and today, we celebrate his life, and his death. Esteban has touched our lives, and we must never forget the gift he has given to us.

May 3, 2004

Falling (poem)

In 2004, I was a senior and I took Creative Writing class. We had to write a poem with examples of personification and hyperbole in it. A lot of my poems from then are very dark as I was in a very dark place in my life. But, I thought I would share my poem with personification and hyperbole.

Falling

My heart aches with everlasting pain
Everytime you speak to me I melt
Your love is like a baby screaming out loud
My cries echo in the halls
I am holding on desperately to you
My heart is filled with tears
I try to cling on but I am falling away
The flowers in the garden turn into blood
Our eyes are flooding with fire
Your heart is a murderer
And I always stay and keep falling

Snowing

It was snowing for almost 3 straight hrs this morning. Now it is sleeting, which is worse. Way worse. Very dangerous outside. So if you live in Baltimore area, be careful. It will be raining steady this evening and all tonight. But the snow was very pretty to watch. I took this photo with Instagram.

Monday, December 17, 2012

God Bless Journalists

As an aspiring journalist, I've watched a lot of journalists on tv and also read their articles. My favorite journalists are international journalists. And Richard Engel is one of them. He is an award winning journalist who has been missing in Syria since Thursday.

I don't think a lot of people realize how dangerous it is to be a journalist in these times. With multiple wars all over the world, communist and totalitarian dictatorships murdering, raping and imprisoning journalists and dissidents, now more than ever, it is a life-risking career. They uncover the truth. And they are absolutely relentless in uncovering it. A real journalist will uncover truth no matter where it hides or who is hiding it. They are the very few people in this world who will travel to the most dangerous countries knowing they could be killed and speak out for those who are being oppressed and wronged.

I learned a lot about Richard Engel in the link below. He is fluent in Arabic and Spanish. Two of the biggest languages in the world. He has lived in the Middle East. He knows what he is up against. I pray that he will be found safe. I pray that he will be able to continue to speak the truth and give us information that so many others refuse to do out of fear. He, and other journalists are risking their lives so we can know what is really going on in the world. They deserve our complete respect and admiration. God bless him. God bless all journalists.

Award-winning NBC News foreign correspondent Richard Engel missing in Syria since last Thursday | Mail Online

Monday, December 10, 2012

Human Rights Day

Today is Human Rights Day. We must not forget about the millions of our brothers and sisters all over the world who have no human rights at all. To name a few countries where human rights does not exist: Cuba, Venezuela, many countries in Middle East, many countries in Africa, China, Tibet. And the worst of the worst: North Korea. Please everyone, today, post something supporting our opressed brothers and sisters. We can use our freedom to give them a voice. They are being beaten, raped, murdered and imprisoned every second of every day. It doesn't stop. Dictatorships will stop at nothing to keep their power over people.  Please say a prayers for all who are oppressed. One day, everyone in the world will be free from dictatorships and evil.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Hip Hop Cubano

My friend and blogger Luis Felipe Rojas has written an excellent post about Cuban artist David D Omni. David transcends genres and generations. He is one of the artists in Cuba who is not afraid of the Castro regime. He speaks his mind. He believes everyone should have freedom.  He is an extraordinary artist. Please read the link below and share with your friends. VIVA CUBA LIBRE!!!!!!!!!!!!

David Escalona, the Strength of Urban Hip-Hop | Crossing the Barbed Wire

Monday, November 26, 2012

Martin Luther King

I graduated high school in 2004 and in my senior year I took creative writing. By far my favorite class. Our teacher decided to play a joke on us and tell us that we didn't have off to observe Martin Luther King Day. So he made us write a paper explaining why we think its an important holiday and why we should have off of school. Of course, after we wrote our papers he told us we actually did have off that day. Lol. Recently, I found the papers I saved from that class, including that paper. I am publishing it here tonight:

I think Martin Luther King Day should be celebrated as a holiday and have off school and work because he changed America into what it is today. He had the courage to stand up against people who thought segregation was good and he stood up against the politicians who thought racism was right. He fought for schools to be un-segregated and for children of all races to be in the same classrooms together without worrying about each others race. He was critisized for being African American and was also critisized for standing up against the people that were persecuting African Americans. He held marches down streets that had thousands of people protesting segregation and demanding to be treated equally. He didn't just want equality for blacks, he also wanted equality for the lower class white people who also were treated badly and for the people of other races as well. He wanted everyone to live in a world without being persecuted for what their skin color was or how much money they earned. He wasn't afraid of standing up to people and saying his opinion to people about things. He was the only person in that time who had the courage to stand up and speak out without using violent words or actions. The country finally decided to integrate schools and businesses. Black people could work alongside white people and get paid the same money for their work. And black children could get an education just the same as white kids. When schools were integrated, it taught children to accept other cultures and races and accept people for who they were. Today, there is more acceptance for minorities than ever before. Martin Luther King is the reason for that because if he didn't stand up and fight, then we would probably still be segregated. It is a holiday to think about the good that he did and the things he did to change the country. That is why we should have off schools and businesses on the holiday.

Written on 01/13/04 by Colena Corley

Friday, November 9, 2012

More oppression in Cuba

Yoani Sanchez, Angel Santiesteban and other dissidents yesterday were arrested and beaten by the Castro regime.  Some of them have been released, including Yoani. But others remain detained. This is horrible. The world needs to pay attention to the human rights abuses that the Castro dictatorship are commiting against their own people. Please read more here and spread the word on what is happening there: Uncommon Sense: Yoani Sanchez among 20 Cuban dissidents beaten, arrested by Castro dictatorship (UPDATED) And please pray for the Cuban people. They deserve freedom!!!!!!!!! No more oppression!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Humor for Tuesday

I've been going through a lot lately, as I'm sure everyone is. So a dear friend of mine sent this to me. I hope everyone gets a laugh out of it. Or at least a smile. :-)


LIBERTAD!!!!!!!

For those of you who don't know what "libertad" means. Translated from Spanish to English, it means "freedom". Freedom for Cuba. Freedom for a country that has been destroyed by the Castro brothers. They have been in power for way too long. Its time for Cuba and her beautiful people to have freedom. Freedom of speech. Freedom of expression. Freedom to say whatever they want, do what they want, without worrying about being killed or jailed for their political beliefs. The world needs to wake the hell up to what is happening in Cuba. We need to continue to tell everyone about Cuba until there is no one left to tell. VIVA CUBA LIBRE!!!!!!!! LIBERTAD!!!!!


Thursday, October 18, 2012

My Love

My love is my country
My love is my people
My people who came from an island to find freedom
My love is America
My love is Ireland
My love is a country with no freedom
My love is her people
Her people who fight for freedom
Her people who die for freedom
My love is an island
My love is Cuba
My love is freedom
My love is hope
My love is prayer
My love is a free Cuba
Mi amor es mi America
Mi amor es mi Irlanda
Mi amor es mi Cuba
Mi amor es libertad.

Monday, October 15, 2012

An Injustice In Cuba

Today, in Cuba, a huge injustice happened to a man who did nothing wrong. Capitol Hill Cubans has the story:
Capitol Hill Cubans: What a Surprise: Carromero Found Guilty

I pray Carromero will be released before his sentence is up. He should have never been put on trial. He did nothing criminal. The Castro's are trying to cover their asses because they were the ones who had Paya killed. Carromero is innocent.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Scotland Is Closer To Freedom

FOX News - World - Latest Headlines - UK, Scotland to set out terms of independence vote - Page 1 of 1

This story puts a smile to my face. The country where part of my ancestors came from, the country where some of them fought and died, may soon have the freedom they fought for. Centuries have passed, and yet the people of Scotland have never given up their fight for freedom. It makes me proud. Proud to be part Scottish. Proud of my heritage. My people. England made a huge mistake in Ireland and Scotland. They assumed the Irish and Scots would back down and allow a monarcy to reign without opposition. They were dead wrong. My people are some of the most toughest people in the world. And we also have some of the biggest hearts. Long live Scotland!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Blogs for a Free Cuba

I haven't posted about Cuba in awhile and with all that's been going on I think I need to. A lot of my non-Cuban friends don't understand why I post about Cuba so much. It seems whenever I post about Cuba on facebook, someone always asks me why I post about Cuba when I'm not Cuban. To be honest, I get sick of explaining why. My posts should explain why. There is a totalitarian dictatorship that has destroyed that beautiful country and enslaved her people for decades. And the world sits by and caters to the Castros. Its not right. Its horrible that people ignore Cuba. Everyday, more and more now, dissidents are being beaten, threatened, jailed, women are being threatened with rape and sexual abuse, their children are being threatened, and even some dissidents, like Orlando Zapata and Oswaldo Paya and Laura Pollan, killed by the dictatorship.

I try to do my little part in spreading the word on what is happening there but in reality, I can only do so much. There are a lot of others who blog solely about Cuba and whom help the dissidents directly and give the most up to date info about the human rights abuses that are occuring there. This post is mainly for my non-Cuban friends who want to read more about Cuba's struggle for freedom. And most of the blogs I'm going to list, are in English. So, here goes.

1. Uncommon Sense is the blog by my friend Marc Masferrer. He is a journalist who blogs for a free Cuba and who has blogged about almost every single known Cuban political prisoner. I say 'known' because no one knows just how many political prisoners there are there who no one knows about. His blog is one of the most important blogs for a free Cuba. If you want to know about the political prisoners and the latest info on them, then you have to read his blog.

2. Notes From The Cuban Exile Quarter is a blog by human rights activist John Suarez. He blogs extensively on what is happening in Cuba with in-depth information and also translates a lot so that people who don't understand Spanish can still know what is going on there. His blog is also a great resource to learn about the history of Cuba and her struggle for freedom. He also blogs about other dissidents and countries fighting for freedom and human rights such as Tibet and Burma, to name a few. His blog is a must read.

3. Pedazos de la Isla is a blog in English and Spanish by Raul Garcia. He has probably some of the most up to date info on dissidents and human rights abuses in Cuba. His blog is also a must read if you want to know about the dissidents and what is happening to them everyday.

4. Nueva Onda Cuba this blog is by my friend Mickey, who blogs in Spanish. If you know Spanish, his blog is wonderful to read. He blogs about a variety of things from history of Cuba, to dissidents fighting for freedom, the punk rockers in Cuba, the artists in Cuba who continually get oppressed by the government and much more. He runs an excellent blog and deserves a shout out on here. So if you understand Spanish, go and read it!

5. El Balsero Suicida This blog is also in Spanish and its run by two men, Gilberto and Ariel, who I am honored to call my friends. They are Balseros. Their blog has a lot of posts on the history of the Balseros and their struggle for freedom, and also has some posts with interviews and stories as well. Again, if you understand Spanish, this is an excellent blog to read. They write with so much passion and conviction. A wonderful blog to read.

I know I'm missing a lot of blogs and I am time-constricted at the moment and sleep-deprived. So I will be updating this list a lot. But, I ask all of my non-Cuban friends to visit these site and read their posts, read the archives too. Please get involved in helping Cubans to get their freedom. And please share these blogs with all your friends and get them involved too. The world needs to know the truth about what's happening to the people of Cuba. 

Friday, September 21, 2012

Self explanatory

This song speaks volumes for me. And I am sure it will speak volumes for a lot of other people too. Please listen to the lyrics. This band is one of my favorites. Every song they write seems to resonate with a lot of fans. This song is true. And its honest. And real. Worth listening to.

Watch "Times - Tenth Avenue North" on YouTube

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Salve Regina

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of Mercy;
Our life, our sweetness, and our hope.
To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve;
To thee do we send up our sighs,
Mourning and weeping in this valley of tears.
Turn, then, most gracious advocate,
Thine eyes of mercy towards us;
And after this our exile,
Show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary.

Hail Mary (Ave Maria)

Hail Mary, full of grace
The Lord is with thee
Blessed art thou among women
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus
Holy Mary, mother of God
Pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

The Lord's Prayer

Our Father
Who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
Our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
Amen.

The Lord's Prayer

Our Father
Who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
Our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Monday, September 17, 2012

A Poem to God

Before my battery dies (power should be on by tomorrow afternoon), I am going to share a poem that I found inside church today before Mass. Mabey it will help someone out there.

"Dear God, I do not want to know what things there are in store but I implore Your help to live and to accomplish more. Your hand alone can lead me through the darkness of the night, and bless me with encouragement to keep on doing right. I try to be prepared each day to take my life in stride. But I need grace to guide my steps and never leave Your side. Almighty God, in every thought I most sincerely pray for just enough assistance now that I may never stray. Be with me every morning when the sky is gray or blue and let me find the stars at night that light the way to You!" ~ James J. Metcalfe

Friday, September 14, 2012

FREE ALAN GROSS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone please read this link and pray for Alan Gross. Write your Senators and Congressmen. Get the word out. His life is in danger in Cuba. He was unjustly imprisoned and is in extreme danger of dying. Please do everything you can do to help him. Thank you. The wife of Alan Gross says he may not survive Cuban jail - Cuba - MiamiHerald.com

Monday, September 10, 2012

World Suicide Prevention Day

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. Today, a lot of people are struggling. And they are wondering if the struggle is worth it. If they can ever be happy. If their lives can ever be better. My answer, is YES!!!!!!!!! Today, tell someone you care about them. Listen to someone's problems. Offer up a solution. Or just offer up your support. If you see someone on a bridge just standing and looking down, ask them if they're ok. Same with any other place. Or if you hear someone talk about ending their life, help them. Be their friend. Listen to them. Suicide is permanent. Problems aren't. So, please help other. We need to build communtiy. We need to encourage.

And if the topic of suicide is funny to you, if you want to makes jokes, then you show just how low a person can be. Remember, suicide will affect everyone at least once. You won't be joking when it affects you.

Today, we must overcome the pain. The lonliness. The hurt. The shame. The stigma. Help others. God intended for us to. And He loves every one of us. On this day, and week, Suicide Prevention Week, please help someone. Save a life. Save how ever many lives you have to. Please.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Lagrimas

"Si pudiera ser una parte de ti, seria tus lagrimas. Porque tus lagrimas son concebidas en tu corazon, nacen en tus ojos, viven en tus mejillas y mueren en tus labios." ~ Unknown

The above translates as: "If I could be any part of you, I would be your tears. Because your tears are conceived in your heart, born in your eyes, live on your cheeks and die on your lips."

It is one of my favorite quotes in Spanish. :-) Thought I would share it for everyone.

Monday, September 3, 2012

Cuba's Newest Political Prisoner

Cuba has a new political prisoner and the world needs to pay attention. Even though a lot of political prisoners have been released in the past two years, even more are being aressted and imprisoned again. We can't ignore this. We must spread the word and get their names and stories out there. Please read about the imprisonment of Roelbis Coba Sendo and share with all of your friends. This is the only way Cuba will be free. We have to support the dissidents and political prisoners by being their voices when they are silenced.     
Uncommon Sense: Roelbis Coba Sendo, Cuban Political Prisoner of the Week, 9/2/12

Friday, August 31, 2012

Thursday, August 23, 2012

A little nose piercing!

I got my nose pierced the other day. Still trying to get used to it. I have really sensitive skin so it still hurts a lot. Have to keep an eye on it and make sure it doesn't get infected. I'm also putting the stuff on it that they give everyone after you get a piercing. In a couple months, I'm thinking of getting my navel pierced. Not sure though. But I'm content with my 3 piercings for now. Lol.


My favorite quote in Spanish

"Uno aprende a amar, no cuando encuentre a la persona perfecta, sino cuando aprenda a creer en la perfeccion de una persona imperfecta."

Monday, August 20, 2012

Quote of the Night

"Oh, my friend, it's not what they take away from you that counts. It's what you do with what you have left." ~ Hubert Humphrey

Suicide and Society

This morning I woke up to the news that director Tony Scott jumped off a bridge to his death. He was most notable for his movie Top Gun and was the brother of Ridley Scott. Whenever someone takes their life, its a tragedy. But when an older person does, it sends a message to everyone that suicide is not a generational problem. Suicide is an epidemic in this country. Its estimated that somwhere around the world, I read that a suicide happens every minute or so. And I believe it. We have come to a point where instead of being encouraged to get help, we hear people say, "Get over it" or "Just be happy".  But for someone with mental illness or someone who has suffered trauma and has depression as a result, you can't just get over it. You can't just be happy. It takes much more than that. It takes community, friendship, encouragement, therapy, and more often than not, medication. I know this all too well. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety at 14. And at that point I had been wanting to kill myself since I was 11 thanks to being relentlessly bullied in school. Medication didn't work. Partly because now I've found out that the medicine I was put on, has a huge history of causing suicides. So I stopped it. And continued downhill until one day I decided I had had enough. I took a lot of ibuprofen with the intent of killing myself. Little did I know that I took enough to make me sick, but not actually die. Still, it was an attempt nontheless. I haven't attempted it since, but it does cross my mind. Especially recently this year with everything that has gone on in my life. I have days where I want to die. Then I have days where I have hope that ill become someone and live my dreams. But the main reason why I don't attempt it again, is cause I know it will hurt the people I'm closest to. I manage it and if I find myself seriously close to the edge, then I get help. But for others, they can't see that. They are so far gone that they aren't in the right mindset to know to the consequences of suicide. They have so much pain that it overwhelms their whole souls. And they feel the only way out is to be out forever. But its not. I believe suicide is preventable. I believe that if we pay attention to people that we can help them when they are too afraid to ask for help. I believe that we all can save lives. Just like with addiction prevention, the same can be done with suicide prevention. I want to link to a site that deals with both on a more in-depth way. Its TWLOHA . It stands for "To Write Love On Her Arms" if you want to learn more about suicide awareness and prevention and also addiction awareness and prevention and self-harm. They have resources, stories and ways we all can get involved. We are all in this life together. We need each other. We need to help each other. We need to save lives. Heal lives. Make lives better. I hope this helps someone out there. Have a beautiful day. God bless you all and take care.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

FREE PUSSY RIOT!!!!!!!!!!

The ladies of Pussy Riot were sentenced to two years in jail this week. This is horrible. Putin and his oppressive government are at fault for this. Please everyone speak up for these ladies who are now behind bars for exercising their freedom of speech. We have to use our freedom to help them gain theirs, just like we help other dissidents around the world by speaking up for them. These strong women deserve freedom!! And I have a couple of words for Putin and his thugs: FUCK YOU PUTIN!!!!!!!! FREE PUSSY RIOT NOW!!!!!!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Sometimes It's Best To Walk

This morning getting off of my first bus downtown, the second one came fast. Myself and another woman were walking towards it and the driver stopped. Then all of a sudden right when we got up to the bus, he drives right off, leaving us. Its not the first time this has happened to people. It happens all the time. I'm not going to worry about why he left without picking us up. I sat back down waiting for the next bus which comes on 20 min intervals. But then I realized my place is about a mile and a half away, at most. And I've never walked the distance yet. And its a beautiful day so why not? Even with my feet hurting I walked the whole way. It took me about 25 mins. I've realized that walking is not only good for us physically, but it is also good for us spiritually and mentally. You get to enjoy nature. You get to have a clear mind. Seeing things you might not have seen before. I'm horribly tired though. I put on a pedometer one night at work and I clocked in 13 miles of walking distance in an 8 hr shift.....thank God for Dr. Scholls insoles. Lol. But seriously, if you take a bus home and you can make the walk, do it once in a while. It will do you some good. And whether or not you realize it, you are actually walking with God. Because He is there beside you. Its Friday everyone. And to close out this post, I have just 3 words : VIVA CUBA LIBRE!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)

Monday, August 13, 2012

A Little Spice for Today

Watch "Spice Girls - Spice Up Your Life" on YouTube In honor of The Spice Girls reuniting for the closing games of the Olympics, here is my favorite song by them. I was a huge fan as a kid. Even went so far as to dress up like one of them for Halloween. Lol.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

An Early Birthday Present

I live in a house with multiple tenants, including children. One of the women has twin girls, 8 yrs old. They heard it was my birthday tomorrow and when I went up to the steps of the basement, I found a hand-made card wishing me a Happy Birthday. They spelled my name wrong. Lol. Spelling it as "Clena". But I didn't mind. I loved it. Children are so sweet. They are the only ones in this world that have so much love in their hearts that we can't even begin to understand. In my opinion, having someone give me a little hand made card is so much better than something materialistic. Because it came from the heart. And that's what matters most. I'm happy. I'm happy because I have people around me that love me, even if at times I can't see it. My best friend and I have known each other since we were 11. We never thought we would survive until 18....and now we both are turning 26 this month. Time flies by so fast. But I'm thankful I made it this long.

UPDATE: Now the boys in the house, ages 3 and 6, also made me cards and just gave them to me. :D One says, "I like you." I love them so much!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

San Judas Tadeo

San Judas Tadeo intercesor en todo problema dificil, consigueme un trabajo en que me realice como humano y que a mi familia no falte lo suficiente en ningun aspecto de la vida. Que lo conserve a pesar de las circunstancias y personas adversas. Que en él progrese, mejorando siempre mi calidad y gozando de salud y fuerzas. Y que día a día trate de ser util a cuantos me rodean. Asocia tu intercesión a la sagrada familia, de la cual eres pariente y prometo difundir tu devoción como expresión de mi gratitud a tus favores. Amén.

Random Thoughts for Tuesday

1. Everyone needs to have some fun. No matter what your job is or where you are. Just have some fun!!!!!!!! Everyone takes everything way too seriously and we are forgetting the meaning of fun.

2. Music is a wonderful thing.

3. Russia needs to free Pussy Riot immediately. The Russian government is still jailing and murdering its citizens for speaking their minds and daring to go against Putin.

4. To the person who keeps following me, then un-following me on Twitter, (at least 3 times now), just stop. Its extremely annoying and just plain creepy. Its not that hard to decide whether to follow someone or not. I'm half-tempted just to block your ass so you won't have to go through the trouble of un-following me again. If my tweets aren't interesting, then don't follow. Its simple.

5. Men, don't brag to every woman about how "good" you are in bed.......cause most of the time, the ones that brag to everyone, don't have shit. A vibrator would probably give more pleasure than you can. So if you're good in bed, don't publisize it. Your woman will do that for you when she tells her friends how good you are. Lol.

6. What the hell is up with all these crazy bastards going into places and shooting and taking hostages? We are in major trouble as a society.

7. Hot dogs with cheese is delicious. And great for breakfast too.

8. My birthday is Friday and I have no idea what I'm doing yet. Spent way too much money already and have to wait till next week to go out. So, I think ill watch movies. And NO ONE better ruin my day. :-)

9. Is cutting my hair to shoulder-length today. It grows way too fast.

10. Cafe Bustelo is awesome. Everyone should have some.

11. I realized today that I am extremely blessed to have friends that care. And who put up with me cause I like to talk. A lot.

12. "Good morning" in Irish Gaelic is "Maidin mhaith".

13. I hope everyone has a peaceful day. God bless and take care. Muchos abrazos para todos. 

Prayer of the Day

Sancte Michal Archangele, defende nos in proelio; contra nequitiam et insidias diaboli esto praesidium. Imperet illi Deus, supplices deprecamur : tuque, Princeps militiae caelestis, satanam aliosque spiritus malignos, qui ad perditionem animarum pervagantur in mundo, divina virtute in infernum detrude. Amen.

Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle; be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; and do thou. O prince of the heavenly host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who roam about the world, seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Punk Band on Trial in Russia

Watch "Russian punk rock band on trial" on YouTube Everyone please watch this video and spread the word. We need these women to be freed immediately. The Pussy Riot members have been jailed for political reasons. And I loved what they said. "Virgen Mary, drive Putin away." These women have balls. Big balls to go up against a Communist regime and its President. We must stand behind them and support them to be freed.

And let me say one thing. I have noticed a lot of so-called human rights activists that are completely silent on this. And most of them being men. When Cuban punk band Porno Para Ricardo were arrested in Cuba, activists from all over the world condemned the Castro regime. Even though many did not agree with PPR's name nor their lyrics, they still campaigned for their release. So my question is, why be silent when females are jailed? Putin is no better than Castro. Both are Communist countries that oppress their people. I call on all human rights activists to stand up and call for the release of Pussy Riot members. If you're offended at what they did, then fine. Be offended. But remember, in a Communist country like Russia, the Church is in bed with Putin and supports him politically. And these women know it. So please, put religion aside and look at the whole picture here. These women deserve to be freed. FREE PUSSY RIOT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

Quote of the Day

"The Church is not a museum of saints, but rather a hospital for sinners." ~ Father Bob Sewvello

Can everyone please keep Fr. Sewvello in your prayers? He is currently battling cancer. Thank you. God bless.

Monday, July 30, 2012

St. Jude

The picture here is of the St. Jude Shrine here in Baltimore. It is on the corner of Paca and Saratoga Street. St. Jude is the Patron Saint of lost causes, of those in need, desperate or lost souls, all of the above, and much more. When you are in trying times, you can always turn to St. Jude and pray. I think now more than ever we need St. Jude. I pass this shrine on the way home every day. If anyone is ever in Baltimore, please visit the shrine. Its on a major bus route and within walking distance from the Harbor and right near Lexington Market. It is a place of hope for those of us who are hurting. If you are hurting and lost, please know you're not alone. I will pray to St. Jude for all of us who need help. I wish everyone a blessed day.  Take care. God bless.


Sunday, July 29, 2012

Scripture of the Day

Corinthians I 12:12-13 ~ The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body--whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free--and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.   

I hope everyone has a safe and blessed Sunday. God bless you all. Take care.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Americans

We are Americans,
You and I.
The land we are sharing
With its clear and friendly sky
Is a gift from God
For you and I.
Though times have been changing,
Nothing's the same.
The freedom is here
And shall always remain.
The clouds appear
But move on in the sky.
We are Americans,
You and I.

~ Nonna L. Bannister, October 1989

Nonna L. Bannister was an author (posthumously) of a book entitled, The Secret Holocaust Diaries. She was the sole survivor of her entire family. Part of her family were killed in Russia during the Stalinist regime, and part were killed by Hitler and his Gestapo. Her mother died in a concentration camp days before it was liberated. Nonna was hidden in a hospital by Catholic nuns to save her from the same fate as her mother. She emigrated to the U.S. and married and had children. She was married for 53 yrs and 53 days when she died in 2004. Her book is compiled by notes, diaries and documents and photos she saved and hid. She wrote her diaries in over 6 languages and translated all of them before she died. She was originally from Russia. I suggest her book to everyone. Heartbreaking, yet full of courage and hope. She was a hero.

Paya Vive!!!!!!!!

Oswaldo Paya will live on in all of us who fight for a Free Cuba!!!!!!!!!!


Monday, July 23, 2012

R.I.P. Oswaldo Paya.

I was shocked and saddened to learn the murder of Cuban dissident leader Oswaldo Paya. I keep on thinking its a dream and ill wake up. he was a founder and leader of the Cristian Liberation Movement. He fighted for a free Cuba. And now, the Cuban regime has murdered him. How many more have to die before the world pays attention? How many more? I feel aweful for his family and friends. And brothers in the fight for Cuban freedom. I can't imagine the pain they feel. I am sick of people not caring about Cuba. They say it doesn't affect them. Well I say, yes it does. Cuba is 90 miles from us, and a sponser of terrorism. So, yes, what happens in Cuba, should matter to us a lot. The Cuban regime are killing dissidents. They are killing those who are the only hope for a free Cuba. They are killing those who have the most powerful voices to the world. It pisses me off. And it should piss everyone off. Its not right. Its not right that the Cuban people suffer for so long and the world doesn't do shit for them. Oswaldo Paya was a hero. And now he is with Orlando Zapata and Laura Pollan. And I am sure they are still fighting for a free Cuba up there. And to all of those who don't give a shit or who simply don't care, make no mistake about it, Cuba will be free. With or without the worlds help. You choose which side you want to be on. I know in my heart, as many other people do, that Cuba will be a free country and will be beautiful like she once was. And her people will be able to live in peace, without fear. And it will be people like Paya who will acheive that. And we have to support them any way we can. I pray for Paya and his family. Please light a candle and say a prayer for them. Please pray for all the people in Cuba. They need it desperately now. No mas violencia. No mas.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Thought for the night

I don't really have a thought.........................its way too damn hot out to think. It was 107 today...heat index 113.......my mind and body needs time to rest, then think. So, after work, and sleep, I should be able to think properly with some witty thought. Lol. I wish you all a safe and blessed night. Take care and God bless.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Thought for the Night

It doesn't matter what your past is, what you've done....everyone deserves a second chance. Everyone deserves a better future. And everyone is fighting a battle. Remember that. Have a blessed night everyone. Take care and God bless.

Monday, July 16, 2012

One of my favorite songs.

Watch "LINKIN PARK - LIES GREED MISERY (Official Lyric Video)" on YouTube

One of my new favorite songs. I've been a fan of these guys since 2000. Their music has always been an outlet for me. Awesome new music from them.

The Road Less Traveled........Or So We Think

Something caught my attention about a week ago when I was getting my antibiotics at the pharmacy. A big sign said," Generic for Lexapro now available". It made me think a lot. I have been on Lexapro and found it amazing for anxiety. But for depression, not so much. I guess it works for some and not for others. I know the generic will be able to help a lot of people who could not afford it before. But it also made me think of how many people in this country, or even the world, suffer in silence every single day. They look happy to some, but inside they want to die. It is one of the many epidemics we are faced with now. The epidemic of mental illness. Some you can look at and just by their behavior and actions you can tell they are mentally ill and need help. But for a majority of others, no one would know unless they say something. The same with addiction. It is also an epidemic now. And for the most part, we choose to ignore those who are suffering. Mabey because we are scared. Or mabey because we see a little bit of ourselves in them. Mabey its because we have our own demons inside and are terrified to get help. I know all too well the depression part. And anxiety. I still deal with it daily. And it has gotten to the point where I am thinking of going on medicine temporarily just to get my serotonin levels to normal. It has been a hard year so far and I know my limits. Without going into much detail, I can't do it alone this time. I have let it get too far without seeking help. And it scares me a lot. I'm not the only one who is dealing with it. Millions are. Self-harm is also an epidemic now. I knew many people in high school who were cutting themselves. The worst part is that a lot of people knew and ignored it. That seems to be the norm nowadays. If you see an alcoholic who needs help, you ignore them. If you hear someone who makes suicide comments, you pretend you never heard it. This is what we have come to. Why? If someone doesn't want help, then obviously you can only do so much. But at least try. You never know what might happen. The person you are helping might be waiting for someone to care enough about them. Addiction, cutting, depression and anxiety, anorexia, etc are all an epidemic in our society. And even though a lot of people like to think these people who suffer are a minority, the aren't. They are a majority. And we need to do our best to help them and erase the stigma. That road is very heavily traveled. By all of us. I hope and pray for everyone who is battling something. Whether you are in recovery trying to stay on the right path, or if you are trying to get onto the right path and stay. We need to help each other if we can. The road we are on, is not meant to be traveled alone. It is meant to be traveled together. We are meant for community. We need each other. We need community. Peace be with you all. I hope I made some sense with this post.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Learning How To Forgive

For all of my short adult life so far (I'll be 26 in Aug.), the one thing that I have wanted to achieve more than anything is a constant state of peace within myself. Being in peace no matter what happens. But I have realized I can't have peace until I forgive. And I have a lot of people I need to forgive, for various things. But I keep hitting a block. A brick wall that more than ever seems like it is impossible to break down. Instead, it feels like the wall is getting stronger and bigger. And I don't know how to break it down. I know I can't do it alone. Doing it alone never works. But at the same time I am afraid. Because to forgive someone else, I first have to forgive myself. Forgive myself for all the hate I have held inside toward this person. And in return I have also hated myself. The one person I can't seem to forgive is the one person whom I hope I never see again. The one person who screwed up how my mind views men and intimacy. I spent my childhood scared of men because of him. And I am sure many more women have been hurt after me. The hardest part is to heal. To tell myself that its not my fault. And most of the time, I believe its not my fault. But then there are days when I think all of it is my fault. There is an emptiness I feel deep inside. The hurt and pain are overwhelming at times. There are two things that make me feel better: going to Mass and hearing other women overcome what happened to them. Hearing how they have stable relationships and are happy in their lives gives me hope. Forgiveness and moving on are very possible. But it takes time. A lot of time. A lot of healing. And a lot of tears and releasing anger. I really don't know why I am writing this. Mabey its to vent. Mabey so someone else can read it to know they aren't alone. Or mabey so I will know I'm not alone. Learning how to forgive someone is, in my opinion, one of the most greatest things one can achieve. I hope and pray I get there. And I hope and pray others get there too. It is a long road. But well worth it in the end. The hurt will go away and peace will reign. That I am sure of. And I am determined to get there and stay there. Come hell or high water.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Random Thoughts

1. The U.N. Human Rights Council should be disbanded immediately. They are an insult to everyone who lives under tyranny and oppression. There is no reason why Cuba and other oppressers and dictatorships should be
on that council.

2. I cannot stand people who take their bullshit and anger out on others. It gets very exhausting being a punching bag. Especially when its coming from a family member.

3. Never trust men. Ever. All the good ones are either gay, married or dead.

4. Wouldn't it be funny if the world was a huge snowglobe and some kid was playing with it and fucking everything up? (I know, I'm a nerd).

5. I was serenaded last week by a customer with a guitar. He also prayed with me for my health. He is an awesome man.

6. Sometimes I think that love will never find me. Pure love, that is. But being alone my whole life is a terrifying thought. And I wonder a lot why am I never good enough for men.

7. Strep throat sucks. Big time. And a hospital that repeatedly misdiagnoses you, sucks even worse.

8. One day I hope to visit Cuba and even live there when she is free. And also live for awhile in Costa Rica and Ireland.

9. Has realized that the more sun I get, the darker my freckles on my arms get. And sunburn sucks. Lol.

10. Wants all my friends to know that you all are always in my prayers.

11. I need sleep.

12. I also need to get offline and actually try to get some sleep.

13. Have a blessed Wednesday. Peace be with you all. God bless. Xoxoxox

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Sandusky and Justice

I am a little late to the news that former Penn State coach Jerry Sandusky was convicted of 45 of the 48 counts of sexual abuse. I am glad the jury found him guilty. Now mabey the boys he molested can now have some sort of peace within themselves. Or at least move toward peace. I try to stay away from the news when it comes to sex abuse stories. Having been through it myself, seeing it on the news brings up memories that I don't want to deal with or think about. But at least in this case, justice has been served. He won't be able to hurt anyone else ever again. I hope he begs forgiveness from God because he is going to need it. I think the media coverage on this case has dimished the stigma ( only to a certain degree) of survivors of sex abuse. And I try not to follow the path of the media and call them "victims"...... because when you really think about it, we aren't victims. We are survivors. We do our best to overcome what has been done to us. And we also try to prevent it happening to someone else. I haven't watched too much of the case, so I don't know specifics. But I do know that Sandusky will rot in jail for the rest of his sad, pathetic life. There is one more child molestor off the streets today. Let this be a lesson to the rest. If you can't find anything to be happy about today, be happy that he can't hurt anyone else. And for anyone who is struggling with being molested as a child, please go to therapy. Please go to the police. Even is the statute of limitations is up, still tell them. Just so they know in case someone else comes forward in the future. Don't be afraid to talk to someone. It wasn't your fault. It took me awhile to realize that part. And please, if you suspect a child is being molested, please call the police or call a social worker. It is always better to be safe than sorry. I hope the Sandusky case serves as a reminder that molestion can happen anywhere, and can be done by those whom we think would never be capable of such a horrible act. I pray for all of the survivors and their families. And I also pray for those who are going through it now, and who are too afraid to speak up. God, please give them strength and courage. Please help them. Justice was served in this case, and I hope justice will be served for millions of others now. Peace be with you all. Have a blessed Saturday.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Heat Wave

So, its supossed to be 99 today with a heat index of 105............this is about the time where I start thinking of my little island on a beach with white sand and palm trees and sky blue water. And VERY little humidity. I think if the humidity here in Baltimore wasn't so bad then I could tolerate the heat. But with respiratory issues, allergies, and a deviated septum, I feel like I am suffocating with this heat wave. Riding the bus is the only relief I get. Lol. All of them are air conditioned. I pray that no one dies from this heat. There are many homeless in Baltimore who do not have a place to go. Temporary shelters with air conditioning are open. Let's hope this summer is not as bad as we think it will be. As a native Floridian, I can honestly say I do miss hurricanes. Lol. Crazy, I know. Maybe we will have one up here this year? :-) lol. Wishful thinking on my part. I hope everyone stays safe out there. Take care and God bless.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Trying to make it through

This year has not gone the way I hoped it would be. In March, with my mothers surgery and heart issues, and now with me having nearly 3 infections at once, and also now to learn that my mother has a tumor that they found. Good news is that it wasn't there when she had the surgery, which means it hasent been there for long. Which makes it a lot easier to treat her if it is cancer because it hasent spread anywhere. They will biopsy it and go from there. I honestly don't know what to do. Don't know who or where to turn to for help. Emotionally, I am in a horrible state, as I always am when I am this sick. But to learn my mom might have cancer is too much for me to handle. Going to church today is out of the question as I am still highly contagious so hopefully by Thursday afternoon or Friday I will go and talk to someone. Tonsilitis, ear infection and possible strep throat are nothing to play with and the last thing I want is for anyone else to have this. I hope and pray this year will get better for us and for everyone else. It seems everyone are going through hard times. But I do have to admit, with the ear infection and not being able to hear out of my left ear, now I actually have an excuse to ignore certain people when they talk to me. Lol. At least I can find some humor in all of this. I will say a daily prayer for everyone who is going through hard times and pray that God makes it better with His Grace. God bless you all and take care.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Some thoughts on homophobia and using religion to promote hate.

I have been debating about writing this for quite sometime now. But after reading something about Nick Cannon refusing to hug a gay contestant, then I thought that I have to state my opinion on the whole gay "issue". First and foremost, this post is not about gay marriage. Whether you are for it or not, it shouldn't matter with this post. This post is about hate. Hate towards gays that is mostly from the "Christian community". So-called Christians who believe all gays are going to hell and that they are an abomination to God. Well, let me put something in perspective for everyone. No sin is greater than the other. All sins are equally wrong in the eyes of God. With that being said, how many of you that hate gays, have had sex BEFORE marriage?????? If you have, then you have commited a sin just as equal as gay sex. Congratulations. Because as far as your logic goes, you are also an abomination. From what I hear a lot, people like to think that the Catholic Church hates gays. No, they don't. The Catholic Church hates sin. All sin. From anyone. But I have noticed in the Protestant/Evangelical community that they just don't hate sin, they hate the very existence of gays. But as far as religions go, Islam is the worst. They hang anyone accused of being gay. Here in the U.S., we have laws against that, thank God. But I am sure that there are a lot of religious people of all demoninations who would jump at making a law similar to Muslim countries. When did we as a society tolerate hate towards people for what they choose to do in their own bedrooms? If someone is gay, then let them be gay. It is their business, not yours. But let me also say some things about the gay community. As a whole, they spend too much time fighting for marriage rights when their own people are being executed in other countries for simply existing. And yet there are no rallies or marches for them. The gays in this country, as a whole, are silent. It is tragic. Everyone wants to hate people for who they are and yet excuse their own behavior which is equally worse in the eyes of God. I don't think God hates gays. I think what God hates, are people telling others how to live and what to think and put His name in the middle of it. I think what He hates the most, are people who use His name to promote hate towards others. This is where are society has gone wrong. Its ok to have morals. Its ok to be against gay marriage or gay sex. It is your free will to do so and to believe what you want. But it is not ok to incite hatred or violence against people because of who they love. Do you really think God is looking down smiling at people hanging a gay man? Or at people protesting soldiers funerals? Hell no. He's not smiling at all. I believe he is disgusted. Disgusted at what we all have become. Disgusted at our apathy towards one another. I personally believe that gays are just like everyone else: human. They deserve kindness and respect just like everyone else. You can disagree with them and how they live, just as you can disagree with how others live their lives. But please, stop the hatred towards them. In the End, we will all be judged. Not just for what we have done, but for what we have also done to others. Think about that.

"To be one, to be united is a great thing. But to respect the right to be different is maybe even greater." ~ Bono

"Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." ~ Paulo Coelho

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Scripture of the Day

Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

Quote of the Day

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." ~ Plato

Saturday, May 12, 2012

The Crucible vs. McCarthyism: A Comparison/Contrast Essay.

The following essay is from my Junior year of high school that I wrote in American Literature/English class in 2002. I found it today while packing more stuff.

In history there have been many major events that have shaped the times we live in. Two of the major events of our time are the "witchunts" of the Salem Witch Trials and McCarthyism. In these two events there are many similarities like the anger and fear that went on, but however, there is a lot of contrast between the two, such as the consequences. Because of these rich and controversial topics, Arthur Miller wrote his play, The Crucible, which demonstrates all of these issues. He wrote it also so that we would learn and grow from the past, instead of ignoringly repeating it.

The first way both of these events have similarities is by anger. There was a lot of anger among the people of this time. During the Salem Witch Trials, Abby hates Elizabeth Proctor and the wife of the man that she loves, which then results in Abby accusing Elizabeth of practicing witchcraft and communicating with the devil. In McCarthyism, anger is shown when Joseph McCarthy accuses people of being communists. Anyone who expressed their freedom of speech was labeled a communist just because people accused them of being one. There was so much anger in this time that people let it consume them and take over.

The second way the Salem Witch Trials and McCarthyism are similar is that they both were fueled by fear. The Salem Witch Trials were fueled by fear because no one wanted to be punished or killed. When Abby started accusing people of being witches or communicating with the devil, everyone started getting scared that she would accuse them. A lot of people were afraid to do activities and things that they might normally do all the time because they were afraid of being accused. McCarthyism was fueled by the fear of nuclear war. Communists snuck into America from the Soviet Union to spy on the U.S. america and the Soviet Union were on the verge of a nuclear war, so McCarthy instilled fear in everyone because no one had any idea who was a communist. He made everyone afraid to trust people, and they were afraid that they would be accused themselves.

There is one major difference between the Salem Witch Trials and McCarthyism. During the Salem Witch Trials, the people that were accused and denied that they had anything to do with evil, were hanged. However, in McCarthyism, no one was killed for being accused of being a communist. Most of them came out with a bad reputation whether or not they denied it. Another difference is that the Salem Witch Trials occured in the 1600's. People first accused "outsiders" of being witches and practicing evil because they were different. Some people were not used to some of the things different people did so they automatically figured they were associated with the devil. In McCarthyism, people first accused "insiders", people that were in the entertainment business that had connections and that knew a lot of people. So those people were named communists because they were part of a really huge and international industry. Another difference is that McCarthyism happened in the 1950's. A whole different time from when the Salem Witch Trials occured.

The Salem Witch Trials and McCarthyism were very complex events in our time. The fear, anger and differences were very important in both events. Arthur Miller wrote the play, The Crucible, so that people could learn from them. As a result of these events, Arthur Miller's, The Crucible, became a very important play on the American stage.

* I was 16 when I wrote this. That was almost 10 years ago.*

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

The River Of Dreams

Watch "Billy Joel - The River Of Dreams" on YouTube.  Billy Joel is one of my favorite artists. And his song, The River of Dreams, is one of my all-time favorite songs. This song makes me realize that we all can live our dreams. We all dream. Probably more than we think. Dreaming doesn't end when we wake up, we dream throught the day. We dream of what has been, what is going on in the present, and also of what will come. We can't control our dreams. But we can control what we make of them. And we can control if and how we achieve them. My dream is to become a journalist and travel the world telling the stories of people that have no voice. To some, it is nothing more than a dream. To me, its not just a dream. It is a dream that will become a reality one day. It might take me a long while to achieve it, but I will. And anyone else can achieve their dreams as well. We all float down the river of dreams, the question is this: will you continue floating down and achieve your dreams, or will you let negativity from others drown you in that river? Sometimes, it seems like our dreams will never be. I have days like that a lot. But we have to remember that our dreams can come true. If we let them. Just a thought for today. Have a blessed day everyone. Peace be with you all.

Scripture of the Day

Titus 3:4-7 But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Inspiring Song of the Day

Watch "Brandon Heath - The Light in Me - Lyrics" on YouTube.  This song is my favorite song by Brandon Heath. Very inspirational.

Scripture of the Day

Titus 1:7-9 Since an overseer is entrusted with God's work, he must be blameless -- not overbearing, not quick-tempered, not given to drunkenness, not violent, not pursuing dishonest gain. Rather he must be hospitable, one who loves what is good, who is self-controlled, upright, holy and disciplined. He must hold firmly to the trustworthy message as it has been taught, so that he can encourage others by sound doctrine and refute those who oppose it.  

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Scripture of the Day

John 6:35 Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty."

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Scripture of the Day

Titus 3:4-7 But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Scripture of the Day

Peter I 4:12-13 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Thoughts on being non-Cuban and spreading the word on the struggle for freedom in Cuba

I originally wasn't going to post anything. But what someone said to me a couple nights ago has weighed heavily on my mind. A group of people and I were talking about the Marlins manager and the uproar over him making comments praising dictator Fidel Castro. Then one of them said to me: "You care more about Cuba than your own heritage" and also "You act like a Cuban". This took me back. And it has made me question a lot of things within myself. First and foremost, I'm not Cuban. And I don't pretend to be. as far as "acting like a Cuban", what does a Cuban act like? Really. I know many Cubans. And all of them are different. They are their own personalities just like everyone else. I did not ask that question to the person but the only explanation I can come up with as to why they said that, is because I am a very emotional and passionate person (that's probably an understatement there) and I guess that is one of the stereotypes that society has given Cubans. As for "caring about Cuba more than my own heritage", this was the statement that offended me the most. I was speechless to that. Anyone that knows me knows that my heritage is who I am. And I am equally as passionate about my Irish and Scottish heritage as I am about Cuba. My ancestors were opressed for centuries. They were raped, murdered, starved, beaten, and eventually forced out of their homeland and came to the United States. The type of oppression they were under is different than what is going on in Cuba. Ireland was oppressed by a monarchy. Cuba is oppressed by a Communist Dictatorship. But I feel in my heart and soul for Cuba. I think about Cuba and her wonderful and brave people every single damn day. And I also think about my own heritage everyday. I love Cuba. Her people. Her music. Cubans have a passion for everything. For family. For life. You don't see that in many cultures now. American culture has abandoned the family unit. We have abandoned a passion for freedom and life. We could learn a lot from Cubans in exile and from Cubans still on the island. They don't take their freedom her for granted. They live with purpose. Everything they do, they put their all into. They remind me of the Irish. I think these two cultures have more in common than people realize. But being non-Cuban and trying to find people who care about Cuba and her struggle, is extremely hard. I have tried to tell people about Cuba, to which one responded flat out, "I don't care". But then there are those who genuinely do care and do listen. But they are few. But I still keep talking about Cuba. Why? Because that is the main way we can help Cuba be free. To spread the truth about the Castros and make people realize what is happening there. The more people that know the truth, the more power the dissidents have, and the more closer Cuba will be to becoming free. So, to the person who said those words to me and who made me think deeply about this: thank you. Thank you for making me realize how much I love my Irishness and how much I love Cuba. And if I "act like a Cuban", then fine. At the end of the day, instead of playing video games and rotting my brain on things that do no good for me, I can say that I tried to help people become free, in whatever small way I can. Cuba will be free, one day. To all of my non-Cuban friends, please consider speaking out for those in Cuba who live everyday in oppression. We can use our freedom to help them gain theirs. They deserve freedom. They have suffered far too long. May God bless all of them. And peace be with you all. VIVA CUBA LIBREEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Good Friday and Some Thoughts.

Today is Good Friday. This is the day when Jesus was crucified on the Cross. This year I know more than I did last year about this day. I'm not sure if other people new to faith have experienced this, but it has taken me a long time to really understand that Jesus died for our sins. For our salvation. And that He loves every single one of us. Even through our sins. We are not worthy of His love, for we all sin. But He still chooses to love us. Once we can wrap our heads around that, I think lives would be more richer and happier. People would have more peace within themselves. I don't understand all of it still, but I do know that for the first time in my life, I feel that Jesus loves me. I never thought I would feel that. And He loves all of you too. Even when we feel we are alone, He is here. Even through our own trials, He is here. When we carry our own crosses, He is here with us. Suffering with us. He knows all too well about suffering and pain and humiliation. Even in our darkest hour, He is there with us to hold us in His arms and give us safety. He hears our prayers and our cries. I can't imagine the pain he went through on the Cross. But He suffered for us. Died for us. For all of us. He loves us that much. To die for us. On this Good Friday, whever you are at in your life, please remember that He loves you so much. Jesus love you and knows your pain. And He will bring you through it. He always does. He is our Savior. No one will ever love us like He does. God bless you and peace be with you all.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Thoughts About Trayvon Martin Case

I have been listening to a lot of the media and news reports for the last week about the murder of Trayvon Martin. My opinion will not be popular, but here goes. This case is not racial. Everyone please stop making this into a race war. Every single night, kids of ALL backgrounds and races are gunned down in all types of situations. If Zimmerman would have yelled out racial slurs against the kid, then it would be racially motivated. But he did not. None of the witnesses say he did. Therefore, it is not a hate crime nor is it racially motivated. We need to stop blaming things on the color of peoples skin. I believe Zimmerman was looking for someone to shoot. The whole point of neighborhood watch is to do just that: watch. If you think something is wrong, then you call the police and let them handle it. When Zimmerman was told not to follow Martin, he ignored that order and ran after him. At that moment, it became intent that he was looking for a fight. And when he shot Martin, it became murder. The difficult part is that the police and investigators need time to sort through all of the stories and evidence. People are impatient, but remember this: would you rather have Zimmerman arrested with weak evidence and him aquitted, or let the police do their jobs and investigate so they can have solid evidence to get a conviction? You can't arrest someone on weak evidence and expect a jury to convict. You need solid evidence in this case. Zimmerman's story is already being questioned, which means his story and his lies are falling apart. The truth is slowly coming out and I believe there will be an arrest, but people have to be patient. But keep in mind one thing about all of this: kids are killed everyday. Every single day. No one marches in the streets for them. No one marches in the streets when our soldiers are killed. People are turning this boys murder into a publicity stunt. People are name-calling and pointing fingers. We as a country, should be better than this. we need to come together and look at the bigger picture here. And that is our obsession with a violent culture. A culture that glorifies murder and violence and yet we get upset when we see murder and violence. We, as a society, are collapsing from within. Trayvon Martin deserves better than this. His memory and his legacy should be used to do good in our society. Him and other kids like him, have been killed for no reason. We must stop this. We must create a culture of non-violence and respect. Respect for our neighbor and respect for ourselves. I hope Zimmerman eventually goes to jail for what he did. And I hope people can stop glorifying violence and murder. I hope people can stop with all the hate talk. Hate accomplishes nothing. This case is a wake up call for us as a country. The violence is out of control. And unless we come together and stand up, it will only get worse. R.I.P. Trayvon and to all of the other kids who are killed everday. They deserve peace and justice.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Scared

Since Sunday, my home has been at the hospital with my mom. She has two very serious health problems. One involves the region of her abdomen and the other is her heart. She needs surgery. Everything the doctors are doing is not working now. They tried to avoid surgery, but it is inevitable now. And they have to make sure her heart will be able to handle it. Her Echo is scheduled for sometime soon. I am helpless. Oddly enough, she is more positive than I. She has not been able to eat nor drink anything at all since Sunday. She is on an IV for fluids. After the surgery, she will be on a liqiud only diet until she can work up to solid foods again so her stomach and digestive system can handle it. I hate seeing her like this. Having a tube down her nose to her stomach sucking out all the waste that is stuck and now there is blood in it. All I can do is pray. I am mad at God right now. I know that is bad to say but I am. My mother and I have our issues but I love her. And she knows I love her. I hope there are no complications with her surgery. In this situation I pray to God and Saints Elmo and John of God. Even though I have people to support me, I feel alone and helpless. Please keep her in your prayers. Pray for everything to go good and work. Peace be with you.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Andrew Breitbart R.I.P.

The world of politics and journalism lost a dear soul the other day. Andrew Breitbart was a conservative journalist and writer who stood up against the extreme Left and exposed their propaganda and hatred for everyone. He exposed the truth when other media outlets wouldn't even dare to. And sadly, the Leftists are now exposing their true selves in the wake of his death. They are smearing his name, talking trash and literally rejoicing. It is disgusting. They have no shame nor guilt. But if they think that people are going to stop exposing them for who they really are, they are very wrong. Breitbart inspired thousands, if not millions, to speak up and stand up for the truth and to expose the Left. From what I have read about him, he was once on the side of the Left, like myself, and knows all too well the lies that they feed to people. As someone who wants to be a journalist, he is an inspiration. He is the epitomy of an excellent and true, passionate journalist. He had no fear. And never cared if he made enemies. I pray for his family. We might have lost a great conservative, but his family has lost a husband and a father. That is way more horrible and heartbreaking. His legacy will live on, that is for sure. There needs to be more people like him. Way more. This world would be a much better place with more Andrew Breitbarts. I hope he is at peace. Heaven just gained one hell of a tough angel.

Andrew Breitbart R.I.P.

The world of politics and journalism lost a dear soul the other day. Andrew Breitbart was a conservative journalist and writer who stood up against the extreme Left and exposed their propaganda and hatred for everyone. He exposed the truth when other media outlets wouldn't even dare to. And sadly, the Leftists are now exposing their true selves in the wake of his death. They are smearing his name, talking trash and literally rejoicing. It is disgusting. They have no shame nor guilt. But if they think that people are going to stop exposing them for who they really are, they are very wrong. Breitbart inspired thousands, if not millions, to speak up and stand up for the truth and to expose the Left. From what I have read about him, he was once on the side of the Left, like myself, and knows all too well the lies that they feed to people. As someone who wants to be a journalist, he is an inspiration. He is the epitomy of an excellent and true, passionate journalist. He had no fear. And never cared if he made enemies. I pray for his family. We might have lost a great conservative, but his family has lost a husband and a father. That is way more horrible and heartbreaking. His legacy will live on, that is for sure. There needs to be more people like him. Way more. This world would be a much better place with more Andrew Breitbarts. I hope he is at peace. Heaven just gained one hell of a tough angel.

The trouble with worrying.

Ok, I have a huge problem with worrying about things. Anyone who knows me, knows this. Lately though, it has been worse than usual. I don't know why or where it is coming from. But I can't stand it. Because with me, worry turns into anxiety and anxiety turns into high blood pressure. I have been warned by doctors that my bp is high. That is a problem considering I am 25. I try lighting candles, I try relaxing, I try meditating and yet my mind still races. Mabey someone out here in the blogosphere has dealt with this and has a solution. Because I know if I focus on certain things and worry too much, it could come true. And I do not want that at all. Because the things I worry about, are serious. Irrational to others mabey, but serious to me. I have isolated myself lately which is not good. I honestly don't know what to do about this now. It seems to get worse. So if anyone has any advice, it is welcome. Peace be with you all and have a blessed and safe day.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Personal Thoughts on Lent, Faith and of course, I do some Rambling.

Today is Ash Wednesday. The start of Lent. I want to wish all of my brothers and sisters in the faith a wonderful and blessed Easter season. I have not started out good so far. Even though I have given up soda for Lent, that is the easy part. Today, we are supossed to abstain from eating meat. I was doing good.but I have had so much on my mind and so distracted by things that I fixed cheese manacotti for breakfast. Completely forgot that it had meat in the sauce. I didn't even notice it until I was almost done my plate. I doubt Jesus is pissed at me though. Since it was an honest mistake. This is my second year observing Lent so I am trying to get used to everything. Faith confuses me very easily. And lately, I need faith more than ever. I don't know why but certain people seem to think it is ok to insult my intellect. I will admit, I have my dumb moments. We all do. But for the most part, I consider myself at least a little smart. Even if they are being sarcastic, I still take it personally. And I have a lot of trouble dealing spiritually with it.

I have so many questions about the faith. And to be honest, I don't live the faith like we are supossed to.I have mortal sins that are unconfessed, I don't go to Mass every week like I should. A lot of it has to do with fear and anxiety. My anxiety is fine at work for the most part. But when it comes to Church, my stomach turns and I have panic attacks. I am excited about the faith, but at the same time, I am scared. Scared to be vulnerable. Scared to give up total control to God. I go back and forth with it alot. Part of me wants to go to Mass everyday. When I go, I feel at peace afterwards. But then my anxiety comes. And I start thinking that I am not good enough to be there. I get scared so easily about it now. I have doubts within myself. I am still trying to find my way. I know God put me on this path in faith. As a teenager, I practiced and experimented with all types of religions, including Wicca. I am glad God guided me on the path to the Church I was baptized in. The Catholic faith is beautiful. Lent is beautiful. Jesus dying for our sins is beautiful. I have some beautiful and dear friends in this faith who are helping me and guiding me. And who don't judge me. This Lent, I am going to try to love myself more. To convince myself that I am worthy of love. That somewhere, there is someone looking for me. Looking for what I have in my heart, mind and soul. But I know that I cannot allow someone to love me without loving myself first. And the same goes with God. God loves us all. Regardless of what we do. But sometimes it is hard for us to see it. I am that way. Anyways, I am rambling as usual. I guess what I am trying to say is Lent is a special time for us. We are reminded of Jesus's love for us. God's love for us. We all need to try better in opening ourselves up to that love. To be vulnerable with God. To trust Him with ourselves, our hearts, our lives. It is not easy. But, I think as long as we try, everything will be ok. I have to remind myself of this a lot. This Lent, I pray that all of you can find and have peace within you. For me, peace is a work in progress. Hard work. But in the end, it will be ok. I am thankful for Lent. I am thankful for faith. God bless all of you and peace be with you all.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

update to the previous post

I am not sure if my last post linked to the sites correctly so I will try again. http://freecubafoundation.blogspot.com http://cubanexilequarter.blogspot.com . you can find more info about the fast and vigils on these links in this post. if you are not in miami you can organize one where you live. it is important that we all honor those who have died while fighting for a free cuba. peace be with you all.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Fasting and Prayer for Orlando Zapata, Wilman Villar Mendoza, and Brothers to the Rescue

On the 23rd of this month, Feburary, it will be 2 years since the death of Cuban Prisoner of Conscience Orlando Zapata, who died on a hunger strike while in prison. He died fighting for a free Cuba. Last month, sadly another Cuban prisoner of conscience, Wilman Villar, died on hunger strike. The Free Cuba Foundation is calling on all people of good will to join in fasting and prayer to honor Zapata, Villar and also the four brave men of Brothers to the Rescue who were shot down by the Castro regime in International waters. All of them died struggling and fighting for a free Cuba. Please consider joining in a 24 hour fast to honor all of these brave men. You can also organize and participate in vigils and moments of silence as well. It is the least we can do to honor all who have died for a free Cuba. For more detailed information you can visit http://freecubafoundation.blogspot.com/ to learn more about Zapata and Villar and Brothers to the Rescue and also fasting and prayer on the 23rd. And also to learn more about the struggle for a free cuba, you can go to http://www.cubanexilequarter.blogspot.com/ . Both sites are in English.

On a side note: about fasting. Always check with your doctor before doing any type of fasting. Especially a 24 hour water only fast. Do not fast if you have any type of medical ailments. This is my second year joining in fasting and I will be doing a juice only fast because of the fact I have to work while fasting. Decide what is best for you and your body. Never put yourself in a position where you will be hospitalized or worse. If you cannot fast, it is ok. Organize a vigil or spend the day in prayer. Do whatever you are capable of doing. And of course, spread the word to you friends, family and colleagues about Cuba and the human rights abuses that are being commited against the Cuban people by the Castro regime. Supporting the dissidents and honoring those who have died is the most important thing we can do to help them fight for a free Cuba.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Faith.

Alophoto taken from internet. t of things have been on m mind lately. Faith being one of them. Catholic faith. I was baptized catholic at 4 after my father died. i guess back then they had a thing called 'limbo' and that is why i was baptized. I wasn't raised in the church at all. I was raised with no religion. I have found my way back to the same church i was baptized into. but it is also humiliating to have to take classes to be confirmed. It is humiliating to have to learn the bible at 25 years old. There are children who know way more than i do. I struggle with doubt alot. Alot of the time i don't feel god around me. I feel like a failure. Sometimes i feel that god hates me. I feel empty. And it hurts. I guess this is all normal feelings to have in the journey of faith but i don't want these feelings anymore. I want to feel god near me. With me. This keeps me up most days. Like
today.i want peace inside of me. No more sadness anssray that god hears all of our prayers for peace.

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Invasion

I have an invasion of horse flies in my apartment. Well, it's more like an infestation. Seriously. I had a rat that died inside of my walls and i am guessing these little bastards have nested in the walls while feasting on the rat. It got to the point where last week i had about 80 of them in my kitchen flying over my light. The only way i can control them is by spraying them. And that is only the ones that i can see. I am guessing the ones in the wall are going to keep having babies. The worst part is i am going to have company tomorrow morning and now have to make it look presentable and apologize over and over for the state of my apartment. Even though i live with my mother, she doesn't help at all and honestly doesn't care. I would rather deal with the rats than these flies. They are horrible. I feel like a failure. All i can do is pray that they will go away. And fast.

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Friday, January 20, 2012

Just a quick note for

Just a quick note for the few readers I have, mobile blogger is messing up my posts and I will fix my posts when i get to a pc.

Willman Mendoza r. I. P.

Last night wilman villar mendoza died from more than 50 days of being on a hunger strike. He died fighting for the freedom of his country. He died a hero. He left behind 2 daughters, 5 and 6, and a wife. The castro regime is fully responsible for his death. I have seen other bloggers say that we all could have done more. That we failed wilman. And i agree. I am so pissed that he died. How many more cubans have to die before the international media pays attention? How many more? They turned a blind eye to him and the dissidents. Enough is enough. I hope and pray that no one else dies. I hope and pray that this will be the last year of the castro regime in power. The people of cuba need freedom. Now. And they need our support to accomplish that. Please spread the word about mendoza. Let his memory live on. Fight for freedom in his memory. pray, tell your friends and family, write letters
to your elected officials. Do something to help the dissidents in cuba. pray for his family. Please.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

CUBAN POLITICAL PRISONER WILMAN VILLAR

CUBAN POLITICAL PRISONER WILMAN VILLAR MENDOZA DIES http://t.co/neeoOiuF (via twitter)

Wilman villar mendoza

Right now, inside of a cuban prison hospital, cuban prisoner of conscience wilman villar mendoza is in a coma fighting for his life. He has been on a hunger strike since november. if he dies, the castro regime is fuwill bey responsible for it. The dissidents in cubpolitical prisonersd with no choice but to resort to hunger strikes. In 2010 cuban prisoner of conscience orlando zapata tamayo died on a hunger strike. This is the reality if c oa. Everyday, political prisoners, as well as those who are not in prison, are beaten, threatened and detained for simply wanting a free country where they will not be imprisoned forexpressing differe pay attention to him and to the people of cuba who are fighting for freedom. Pray for him, please. Pray that he will come out of the coma and survive. Pray for all of the dissidents in cuba. Pray. Spread the word. Do something to tell peoples about him.
His life is in danger, he needs our help and support. He ise iheraageous man. We need him tosurvive.

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Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Flashback 2nd b.lizzard of 2010.

This is a pic i took of the second blizzard of 2010 that hit us in the mid atlantic region. The photo was taken on feb. 6, 2010. I was snowed in for an entire week and the blizzard right before had hit less than a couple weeks earlier. it gave me a rude reminder of when i first moved to maryland from florida in december 1995....a couple weeks later, the blizzard of 96 hit. I like snow....only when it is falling and making everything beautiful. I don't like the aftermath of it. I am glad this winter has been snow free so far. And i hope it stays that way. Anyways, just thought i would share this photo. Everyone have a beautiful day and stay warm and safe. Hugs.

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Saturday, January 14, 2012

Te amo

Mi amor. Mi querido. Eres siempre en mi corazon. Tus besos. Tus palababrazo pasion. Tus palabras de amor. Yo soy tuyo. Y tu eres mio. Nuestro amor es como fuego. Mi amor por ti es eterno. Me entrego a tu amor. Te amo con todo mi cuerpo. Mi alma. Mi corazon. Te amo, mi carino. Te amo.

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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

My favorite place

The photo above is bloede's dam. It is in patapsco valley state park, maryland. I love to go here often in the spring and summer. It was the worlds first underwater hydroelectricdam. Most of it was damaged by hurricane agnes years ago and it was later gutted. On the left there is a fish ladder for fish to swim upstream. In order to get to the dam you have to walk a mile on the trail along the patapsco river. There are always ducks around with their babies, which is a lovely sight to see. All you hear there is the water. The sound of the river flowing. Of course that is in the morning before everyone starts to roll in and have their parties for the summer. for some reason, i feel closer to god in that park. I feel at peace there. Just me and nature. It is a wonderful feeling. I can't wait until spring so i can start going back and hike all the trails. (i have realized that my mobile
isin't letting me capitalize certain things. My grammar is good, it's just the mobile phone messing up).

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

William coleman corley 1918-jan. 4 1991.

On this day when i was 4 years old, i had to learn the hard way what death is. if i do the math correctly, my father was 73 when he died. He was 36 years older than my mother. He served in world war 2 and ended his carreer s a chief in the navy. My only memories of him are on this day when he died and then seeing him in his casket during his viewing. The pain of not having a father will stay with me for the rest of my life. It is a hole that will never be fixed. I have nothing of his that he had owned. That all was given to my brother because he is the son. No one thought that i would have liked to have something of my fathers. All i have are pictures. although alot of him is alive in me. I get my love of cultures, languages, and freedom from him. i have his hair genes. For better or worse. Lol. I hope he is proud of me. Dad, i miss you and love you. One day we will see each other again
. In the meantime, keep on partying up there with god. You are missed by so many. I love you. R.i.p.

Baby #2

I havent written in quite awhile. Of course,  life is busy with a 4 year old. And now,  I find myself going through the process again. I am ...