Thursday, March 8, 2012

Scared

Since Sunday, my home has been at the hospital with my mom. She has two very serious health problems. One involves the region of her abdomen and the other is her heart. She needs surgery. Everything the doctors are doing is not working now. They tried to avoid surgery, but it is inevitable now. And they have to make sure her heart will be able to handle it. Her Echo is scheduled for sometime soon. I am helpless. Oddly enough, she is more positive than I. She has not been able to eat nor drink anything at all since Sunday. She is on an IV for fluids. After the surgery, she will be on a liqiud only diet until she can work up to solid foods again so her stomach and digestive system can handle it. I hate seeing her like this. Having a tube down her nose to her stomach sucking out all the waste that is stuck and now there is blood in it. All I can do is pray. I am mad at God right now. I know that is bad to say but I am. My mother and I have our issues but I love her. And she knows I love her. I hope there are no complications with her surgery. In this situation I pray to God and Saints Elmo and John of God. Even though I have people to support me, I feel alone and helpless. Please keep her in your prayers. Pray for everything to go good and work. Peace be with you.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Andrew Breitbart R.I.P.

The world of politics and journalism lost a dear soul the other day. Andrew Breitbart was a conservative journalist and writer who stood up against the extreme Left and exposed their propaganda and hatred for everyone. He exposed the truth when other media outlets wouldn't even dare to. And sadly, the Leftists are now exposing their true selves in the wake of his death. They are smearing his name, talking trash and literally rejoicing. It is disgusting. They have no shame nor guilt. But if they think that people are going to stop exposing them for who they really are, they are very wrong. Breitbart inspired thousands, if not millions, to speak up and stand up for the truth and to expose the Left. From what I have read about him, he was once on the side of the Left, like myself, and knows all too well the lies that they feed to people. As someone who wants to be a journalist, he is an inspiration. He is the epitomy of an excellent and true, passionate journalist. He had no fear. And never cared if he made enemies. I pray for his family. We might have lost a great conservative, but his family has lost a husband and a father. That is way more horrible and heartbreaking. His legacy will live on, that is for sure. There needs to be more people like him. Way more. This world would be a much better place with more Andrew Breitbarts. I hope he is at peace. Heaven just gained one hell of a tough angel.

Andrew Breitbart R.I.P.

The world of politics and journalism lost a dear soul the other day. Andrew Breitbart was a conservative journalist and writer who stood up against the extreme Left and exposed their propaganda and hatred for everyone. He exposed the truth when other media outlets wouldn't even dare to. And sadly, the Leftists are now exposing their true selves in the wake of his death. They are smearing his name, talking trash and literally rejoicing. It is disgusting. They have no shame nor guilt. But if they think that people are going to stop exposing them for who they really are, they are very wrong. Breitbart inspired thousands, if not millions, to speak up and stand up for the truth and to expose the Left. From what I have read about him, he was once on the side of the Left, like myself, and knows all too well the lies that they feed to people. As someone who wants to be a journalist, he is an inspiration. He is the epitomy of an excellent and true, passionate journalist. He had no fear. And never cared if he made enemies. I pray for his family. We might have lost a great conservative, but his family has lost a husband and a father. That is way more horrible and heartbreaking. His legacy will live on, that is for sure. There needs to be more people like him. Way more. This world would be a much better place with more Andrew Breitbarts. I hope he is at peace. Heaven just gained one hell of a tough angel.

The trouble with worrying.

Ok, I have a huge problem with worrying about things. Anyone who knows me, knows this. Lately though, it has been worse than usual. I don't know why or where it is coming from. But I can't stand it. Because with me, worry turns into anxiety and anxiety turns into high blood pressure. I have been warned by doctors that my bp is high. That is a problem considering I am 25. I try lighting candles, I try relaxing, I try meditating and yet my mind still races. Mabey someone out here in the blogosphere has dealt with this and has a solution. Because I know if I focus on certain things and worry too much, it could come true. And I do not want that at all. Because the things I worry about, are serious. Irrational to others mabey, but serious to me. I have isolated myself lately which is not good. I honestly don't know what to do about this now. It seems to get worse. So if anyone has any advice, it is welcome. Peace be with you all and have a blessed and safe day.

Baby #2

I havent written in quite awhile. Of course,  life is busy with a 4 year old. And now,  I find myself going through the process again. I am ...